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Hi. I was supposed to see my grandparents and cousins over winter break, but canceled bc of covid. Then we were going to meet on family day, but my step cousins got covid, so canceled. Then on easter, we finally get to my grandparents cottage. The power goes out. There's a fire on the next door neighbor's lawn. Then my brother gets covid and we have to leave. We didn't even get to see most of my cousins.

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7 hours ago, The Sibling said:

Hi. I was supposed to see my grandparents and cousins over winter break, but canceled bc of covid. Then we were going to meet on family day, but my step cousins got covid, so canceled. Then on easter, we finally get to my grandparents cottage. The power goes out. There's a fire on the next door neighbor's lawn. Then my brother gets covid and we have to leave. We didn't even get to see most of my cousins.

That's awful. *hugs*

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Not about me but this whole situation between the governor of Florida and Disney is getting ridiculous and scary. After Disney stopped endorsing him after the backlash of the “Don’t Say Gay” bill he quickly threw together a bill to dissolve the Reedy Creek Improvement District making Disney World officially part of Orange and Osceola counties. To show how reckless this is the bill was passed without any discussion nor any financial reports made to see how it’ll impact everyone in the two counties. In one report it’s being estimated that property taxes will increase by 25% for everyone in Orange County and even higher in Osceola county. The mayor of Orlando is even saying that to include Disney in their budget will wreck havoc since they would have to figure out where to get that additional money from since the budget was already set when the news dropped.

This shows how much damage this one bill is causing to everyone in just two counties  and will most likely spread to the rest of the state all because of one man having a feud with a company.

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  • 3 weeks later...

just found out the tickets for the Alan Walker concert I was planning to go to with two of my bestest friends in November are actuall 18+ so I can't actually go and now I'm about to shoot someone in the face

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25 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

just found out the tickets for the Alan Walker concert I was planning to go to with two of my bestest friends in November are actuall 18+ so I can't actually go and now I'm about to shoot someone in the face

That sucks :(

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5 hours ago, CalanoCorvus said:

just found out the tickets for the Alan Walker concert I was planning to go to with two of my bestest friends in November are actuall 18+ so I can't actually go and now I'm about to shoot someone in the face

That's a shame :(.

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Why do I do it? Once every couple of months I ask myself this question. I feel like I'm a charlatan and an imposter. Why do I write? Why not quit and delete my work. It would be so simple to remove all traces and stop acting as though I have any skill whatsoever. As usual rejection is what brought this on. I had a real chance to break out into the world with my work. Last night it was slapped aside as not good enough. My heart and soul once again rent and torn. Is the pain worth it? Why subject myself to constantly being told what I have long suspected? All I have to do is stop and hit delete. The world will never know what it is going to miss. I doubt that it would even miss it in any case. If I'm truly as incapable as it seems then the world will never know my work anyway. The knife just carves out my heart. I want to believe that I'm capable, but its so hard. One friend called me the most creative person he knows. For all the good it does me. 

I apologize for my rant as usual. This last rejection really got under my skin and hurt.

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My entire family except me and my sister got covid

It's so friking unfair because this was right before a vacation that i was really, really, really, really looking forward to, and for this entire pandemic but especially now we have been more careful than literally anyone i know, we wear n-95 masks in spaces that do not require any masks and we mostly keep big gatherings outdoors and we are so careful, even to the point that some people made fun of us, and then we let our friends stay with us for a night and they weren't careful and now we have covid.

And now our three week vacation that i was awaiting desperately is probably gonna be canceled. i think i'm gonna cry

Anyway, covid is still out there guys, be careful

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23 hours ago, Szeth's Facepalm said:

My entire family except me and my sister got covid

It's so friking unfair because this was right before a vacation that i was really, really, really, really looking forward to, and for this entire pandemic but especially now we have been more careful than literally anyone i know, we wear n-95 masks in spaces that do not require any masks and we mostly keep big gatherings outdoors and we are so careful, even to the point that some people made fun of us, and then we let our friends stay with us for a night and they weren't careful and now we have covid.

And now our three week vacation that i was awaiting desperately is probably gonna be canceled. i think i'm gonna cry

Anyway, covid is still out there guys, be careful

Aw, that's horrible. *hugs*

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In the month of May I had three emotional breakdowns, two anxiety attacks (at least, there might be some I missed), several almost anxiety attacks, continuous awful emotions, and one night of horrible sleep.  And my school has its first in person assembly since the 'rona in a couple days, and that means I'm probably going to have another anxiety attack.

I cannot wait until my emotions get to some kind of equilibrium, and I hope it happens sooner rather than later.

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34 minutes ago, Spren of Kindness said:

In the month of May I had three emotional breakdowns, two anxiety attacks (at least, there might be some I missed), several almost anxiety attacks, continuous awful emotions, and one night of horrible sleep.  And my school has its first in person assembly since the 'rona in a couple days, and that means I'm probably going to have another anxiety attack.

I cannot wait until my emotions get to some kind of equilibrium, and I hope it happens sooner rather than later.

*Hugs* That's awful We are here for you kindness! If you need to talk about it further don't hesitate to reach out.

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My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

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51 minutes ago, Elf said:

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

*Hugs.* Firstly, and most importantly you are loved Elf! Very much so! I cannot even begin to comprehend being treated this way by someone that you considered a friend. Secondly, all that I can really say is this if nothing else we are here for you. If you need someone to talk to my DM's are always open as I have said in the past. I am truly sorry that you ever had to go through this! Take these poems. I hope that they can brighten your day.

 

Cleanse 

The spinning waters,

Encircle. Stop and cool the,

Day. Spring rain shower.

 

Season Greeting

Cinnamon clouds float.

Warm waves wash over the land.

The waking Summer.

 

Rise

Warmth calls all life out.

Flora of all kinds are born.

The spring is awake.

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5 hours ago, Elf said:

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

I'm so sorry that you've been treated like that, Elf. *hugs* It isn't true, and you're a wonderful person.

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On 6/16/2022 at 1:58 AM, Elf said:

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

That's awful! I don't understand people who do things that hurt others. Nothing that they said is true! You are loved. If you want to talk, I'm here. 

As for book characters, that is so true. I read depressing book scenes when I'm sad. I sympathize with the characters and then I feel a bit better. Maybe try that?

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<3 <3 thanks so much all of you! I love you guys a lot <3 

Morningtide, i will try that. It sounds like a good idea. Thanks once again

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Wasn’t sure where to post this.

Last month my mother had found out she had stage 4 cancer. She was put into the hospital a couple weeks ago after fluid got into her lungs and they discovered that the cancer wasn’t on the lungs like they thought but inside them and eating it away. They put her on morphine last night to ease her out of the pain and she passed away at 3AM.

My sister and dad are both there taking care of the arrangements to get her cremated and get rid of some of her stuff we won’t need now. I’m not there because I’m halfway across the country and work at a theme park so I can’t just drop by and be there without letting my supervisors know.

One thing my sister wants us to do is go on a Disney Cruise and scatter the ashes at Disney’s private island but I did the research to see how legal it is and, unless you contact the cruise beforehand to make an arrangement, you could get into big legal trouble, as in banned for life if caught. I really don’t want to do something that could get us into trouble at that level. People caught scattering ashes at the theme parks get lifetime bans and I don’t want to get banned from something I love. I even told them over the phone when they told me she passed and my sister didn’t care about doing it properly and legally. It’s going to raise some red flags if they see ashes coming aboard but none leaving since they screen the bags before and after and it would be morbid to be carrying ashes in a carry on bag.

I didn’t love my mother at all by the end, she was a toxic person who mentally and emotionally abused me, but even I don’t think breaking the rules is worth doing that just to give her a final resting place. I’m also trying to figure out when we could even go to do something like this. Do it at Christmas? Around her birthday? Just a random Tuesday?

I’m just torn over what to do in this situation at the moment.

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