Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Spren of Kindness she/her]

I've recently become uncomfortably aware of the fact that most likely, I will not be able to celebrate a graduation of any sort with my grandparents.  I will most likely not be able to walk down the aisle at my wedding, if I'm lucky enough to marry, with them in the audience.  My children will not know their great-grandparents.  I may have already said goodbye to the homes that meant so much to me as child, that still mean so much to me, at least for the reasons that these places are so important - the people in them.

It sucks.  I hate that I'm old enough to recognize it.

That plus other family things that I have been made aware of that are confusing and uncomfortable.

[Coolmint]

@Draginon, I'm sorry for your loss.  My condolences, and I hope you find a good resolution.

@Spren of Kindness, sorry to hear that, too.

My best friend of many, many years just informed me yesterday she may not have much longer.  Very sudden, and I'm in shock.

[+Slowswift he/him]

[Thaidakar the Ghostblood he/him]

  For all those who need it  

[Nathrangking he/him]

I find myself being swallowed by guilt that I may or may not have earned. In the short version I had a falling out with someone years ago. I had considered them a friend for years. 5 years ago I discovered multiple times that instead of communicating with me she preferred to play the victim whenever I would try and get a handle on our friendship. See I though I had a crush on her and truth be told our friendship was tenuous. I later realized that this was not the case. However, she was dismissive of me and what I had to say. Things eventually boiled over and she said things that attacked me. This pattern proved so toxic that I blocked her and moved on. Early this week she messaged from a new social media account. I deleted the message and blocked the new account. Since then I have felt partially guilty. Maybe I was right maybe I was wrong, but my guilt seems to linger.

 

As always thanks for listening.

 

 

[That1Cellist he/him]

Hugs all around, humans. 

I both love and hate these sorts of things at the same time. On one hand, it's amazing to see people come and share their stories, and the receive support from others. On the other hand, it's awful that people have to go through these things, and I am tired of feeling like I can do absolutely nothing to help.

Good luck with your lives, everyone.

Edited August 3, 2022 by That1Cellist

[Draginon he/him]

Had a permanent address all lined up and the inspection came back showing there was at least $6000 of mold repair, a new AC needed & a water heater as well.

My sister was the one keeping in contact with the realtor since my hours are unpredictable, I might have a 8-5 shift one day but a 1-9 the next, and she decided to cancel the contract so now I’m meeting with the realtor on my day off to look at a couple more places.

I loved how that place looked and I’m just tired of being in flux like this and just want to have a home to call my own. I’m hoping the new ones lined up look nice otherwise I don’t know what I’m going to do.

[+Slowswift he/him]

2 minutes ago, Draginon said:

Had a permanent address all lined up and the inspection came back showing there was at least $6000 of mold repair, a new AC needed & a water heater as well.

My sister was the one keeping in contact with the realtor since my hours are unpredictable, I might have a 8-5 shift one day but a 1-9 the next, and she decided to cancel the contract so now I’m meeting with the realtor on my day off to look at a couple more places.

I loved how that place looked and I’m just tired of being in flux like this and just want to have a home to call my own. I’m hoping the new ones lined up look nice otherwise I don’t know what I’m going to do.

Moving bites. Hope you find a good place soon!

[That1Cellist he/him]

7 hours ago, Draginon said:

Had a permanent address all lined up and the inspection came back showing there was at least $6000 of mold repair, a new AC needed & a water heater as well.

My sister was the one keeping in contact with the realtor since my hours are unpredictable, I might have a 8-5 shift one day but a 1-9 the next, and she decided to cancel the contract so now I’m meeting with the realtor on my day off to look at a couple more places.

I loved how that place looked and I’m just tired of being in flux like this and just want to have a home to call my own. I’m hoping the new ones lined up look nice otherwise I don’t know what I’m going to do.

Yikes. As Slowswift said, moving can be rough. That's really unfortunate. Good luck!

[Medium he/they]

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

[Nathrangking he/him]

5 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*Hugs*. We are all here if you need to vent. I'm only a message away.

[Medium he/they]

i've done a lot of venting, it's mostly out of my system so...

but thank you Nath

[+Slowswift he/him]

10 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*hugs*

[That1Cellist he/him]

8 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*Hugs* It may sound dumb, but sometimes when It's rough for me, I like to remind myself of the first Ideal of the Knights Radiant. "Life before death, strength before weakness, journey before destination."

[Medium he/they]

Thanks for the hugs slowswift,

and the Ideal helps, thanks Cellist

[Thaidakar the Ghostblood he/him]

21 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*MEGA HUGGGSSSSSSSssssssssssSSSS*

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

29 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*hugs*

We're here for you, Calano. Life is confusing, and sometimes things just don't make sense. My deepest sympathies go out to you, and I hope you find peace and comfort during this difficult time. Here's a quote about hope that's been meaningful to me in the past:

“Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear hardship today.” - Thich Nhat Hanh.

[Quivil she/her]

42 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*hugs*

[Lego Mistborn he/him]

1 hour ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

We're here for you. *big hug*

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

2 hours ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*Hugs* We are all here for you.

[Szeth's Facepalm]

4 hours ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs*

You know you can pm me if you want, i'm so so sorry

[Morningtide she/her]

On 8/8/2022 at 0:25 PM, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*Lots of hugs* that's awful. I hope both of you get through this better then ok. 

[Elf They/them]

I think i need help 

But i don't know how to ask for it 

I find myself barelling more and more down a path of self destruction everyday 

And im scared

 

[Morningtide she/her]

3 minutes ago, Elf said:

I think i need help 

But i don't know how to ask for it 

I find myself barelling more and more down a path of self destruction everyday 

And im scared

Hugs! You are an amazing person elf, please don't forget that. I'm bad at saying the right thing, but just know that people here on the shard, including me, care about you! I hope you find a light in your darkness and make it thorough this. I'm here if you want to talk. 

[That1Cellist he/him]

1 hour ago, Elf said:

I think i need help 

But i don't know how to ask for it 

I find myself barelling more and more down a path of self destruction everyday 

And im scared

 

More Hugs! Welcome to the club of wanting to say things but not knowing how. Being scared is a part of life, I think. I do not know that we could appreciate joy if we didn't know what sadness, loneliness, and other things felt like. Remember, the Knights Radiant always fill the cracks with something stronger. You will do the same.