xinoehp512

Holy scud

Holy scud

I need book recommendations that I can get ahold of. I am willing to pay in gratitude. 

I need book recommendations that I can get ahold of. I am willing to pay in gratitude. 

Me: I should do schoolwork like a productive human

Also me:

Welp. I also made a Hunger Games sim with the Sharders. I basically picked the people I knew lol. This is just for fun. Also, there were at least two pfps that I couldn’t get, so I’m sorry about that.

This took way too long.

I've been having really, really weird dreams in the last few weeks. Most recent was one in which @xinoehp512 made a Netflix comedy special. Xino, I'm offended you didn't tell me about your skill in sketch comedy.  I was very impressed with what you pulled off. 

I am officially boosted

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I am officially boosted

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Do any of y'all know that feeling like you don't deserve anything that people give to you or what you do for yourself? There's a feeling of nothingness, like your very soul is an empty void, but no matter how hard you try to fill it with the things that you know have made you feel better in the past, it just doesn't do it. You end up doing something––whether that be drawing or something athletic––and afterwards, you don't and won't believe that it's helping you, and you end up on the floor, trying not to sob the entire day, trying to figure out what happened to yourself and to that joy in doing that thing that makes or made you happy.

You feel lonely, even though you're surrounded by people; most, if not all of them love you. You talk to your friends, and they give you love regardless of what you're feeling or who you might be, but you feel like you don't deserve it, like you have to do something to repay them for what they do for you that can never be repaid, no matter how hard you try. You feel incredibly selfish when going to them to tell them what's been going on, and then realizing how stupid your feelings are when you say them aloud or over text. You feel like you deserve to be alone, no matter how hard you try to be there for people who feel these exact feelings you do. It's what you get for being that person that gains their energy when they're alone.

It's not like your friends or family care what happens to you or even if you decide to hurt yourself for what you do and who you are; after all, friends come and go over the course of your life. You think yourself as selfish when you do decide to try and tell someone what's going on, then you end up feeling really back about it and that feeling of deserving to be alone amplifies. You don't feel like anyone should love you, because you're basically nothing to them. You're only... well, you; you feel like there's nothing special about you and what you do.

People say they care about you, and you try your hardest to believe them, but you can't. You believe they're still your friend out of pity, and you feel so selfish for talking to them about your feelings, even though you know that your life has changed for the better once you've met them. You still love them and will always be there for them, because you don't want them to feel that same pain you experience every single day, from the moment you wake up to the moment you decide to go to bed after sobbing. You try to protect them from feeling that, even though you know deep down that you can't stop everything that happens to those you love.

Anyways, I'm fine. How are y'all?

I hate this.

Words cannot express, so why even bother?

I hate this.

Words cannot express, so why even bother?

I hate this.

Words cannot express, so why even bother?

6 months ago, I surrendered to fear.

It was the right decision to make... but nothing has been the same since.

6 months ago, I surrendered to fear.

It was the right decision to make... but nothing has been the same since.

6 months ago, I surrendered to fear.

It was the right decision to make... but nothing has been the same since.

6 months ago, I surrendered to fear.

It was the right decision to make... but nothing has been the same since.

Wait... how did this happen? All of the RPs that I'm in... aren't active... and all of the active RPs... are ones that I'm not in!

#necromancy

Who's with me?

I wrote a thing. Opinions?

His hair is white as stainless pages plain,

It flows ‘round glorious visage, fettered not

By earthly pull nor leather thong profane,

And glows, requiring he be ne’er forgot.

His eyes, more wondrous blue than sky so high,

Or robins’ egg, or ocean deep below

Their depths surpassing any mundane sigh

And as they gaze, their pull seems but to grow.

This wand’rer fair has travelled near and far

To bring to pass his visions dear of old

In times long past when evil did not mar

And good had champions many, brave, and bold.

But soon his journey ends, his task complete,

And finished then, his happy end to meet.

100 Days have Passed.

Thank You to All who joined me for One Brief Moment.

100 Days have Passed.

Thank You to All who joined me for One Brief Moment.

vpt ypudwf c hn pbmmt? yurngcrny, gpnan cy ku wcipg. ukwt iabt. bg gpnyn gcrny, cg hnxurny pbaf gu anrnrhna gpn bkyvna.

Only answers allowed

HUMANS

I need a volunteer or two for my Social Anthropology project! I just need to ask you a few questions and record your replies. I'd ask that you don't look up anything to supplement your responses or think through them too much (technically this assignment should be with irl people, but because I'm an antisocial git I will instead take my Sharders).

A few things:

• Anyone want more RightingWrites? I can make a whole bunch more (currently thinking about Soft Worldbuilding and Static Characters), but if nobody's interested then I prolly won't.
• Would anyone be interested in a Fadran Inktober thread? My powers of arting have grown, and now the stuff I draw isn't actually super cringy or disgusting! It certainly isn't good, but it isn't terrible either.
• How many of y'all would want pics of Fadran dressed up as Roy Mustang? I'd just be DMing it to the people I know.
• And please please please please please consider me to talk to if you need to talk to somebody. All my Shardbuddies seem to be very sad and I don't like it when my friends are sad. If something's happened or you're just concerned, then I'm on the Shard way too often and should be available most of the time.
• Spoiler

  Also KEEP POSTING ON FELLOWSHIP OF THE THING. I DON'T LIKE THIS WHOLE "DYING THREAD" BUSINESS

   

A few things:

• Anyone want more RightingWrites? I can make a whole bunch more (currently thinking about Soft Worldbuilding and Static Characters), but if nobody's interested then I prolly won't.
• Would anyone be interested in a Fadran Inktober thread? My powers of arting have grown, and now the stuff I draw isn't actually super cringy or disgusting! It certainly isn't good, but it isn't terrible either.
• How many of y'all would want pics of Fadran dressed up as Roy Mustang? I'd just be DMing it to the people I know.
• And please please please please please consider me to talk to if you need to talk to somebody. All my Shardbuddies seem to be very sad and I don't like it when my friends are sad. If something's happened or you're just concerned, then I'm on the Shard way too often and should be available most of the time.
• Spoiler

  Also KEEP POSTING ON FELLOWSHIP OF THE THING. I DON'T LIKE THIS WHOLE "DYING THREAD" BUSINESS