J. Magi

Lifw update I guess? I feel like rambling idk

First week of summer is done and I already feel messed up weird. The lack of a daily schedule always messes with me lol . . . Not to mention I spend why more time in alone in my room and I'm starting to go a little insane.

I went to the farmers market today which was cool. I had beignet's for the first time and they were so good. Also, talkative old tourist men kinda scare me . . . even though they're friendly . . . I don't know. I got another succulent there too which is cool! I've been naming all my succulents after the sons of Feanor. I only have three so far, but someday I'll have a plant for all seven sons lol. (so far I've got Maedhros, Maglor, and Curufin). Maybe I'll show you them sometime!

I finished The Night Circus, and it was a truly lovely book. Thanks @Edema Rue for recommending it!!!

The job hunt's going okay I guess. I've applied to several fast food places in town but none have responded yet lol. I did have a local food truck reach out to me and offer me a position which seems super cool! I think it'd make a great first-job experience so I'm hoping I get hired there. That, or Arbys, because they have an employee discount. (I LOVE Arby's hehehe)

Instagram (or meta) has decided to feed all public posts on the site to it's new Ai which is cool . . . I love theft of intellectual property. Unfortunately complications mean that no one can sue them over it (yet--hopefully the US will get some much needed legislation in this area). Either way, I'm considering leaving the site. Not because I think the AI will target me or because I'm particularly uncomfortable with AI taking my art (though it is wrong) but because a massive community of artists leaving the site says something. Either way, I'll be updating to my Cara account in the 'Website URL' section of my account instead of my Instagram.

My mental health recently has been . . . more then questionable but it is what it is I guess. I'm hoping the summer will be more relaxed and restful for me (but we'll see). Weird, but I feel like I often have this wave of depression every night at 8-9 pm, but then it goes away in like, 20-30 minutes and afterword's I feel fine? I don't really know at this point.

I've been helping my ward's YW group plan this years Girls Camp which has been fun. I actually kind of feel excited to go this time! Normally, I get really anxious about it for various reasons (staying overnight places without my family is kind of hard for me). But I feel like it'll be really fun this year, and all the leader's and girls are super friendly!

I've been thinking about throwing some more stuff in my art thread soon. I haven't done a whole lot besides sketchbook doodles but it'll be fun to share either way lol

I did also start a second try on the 'short story made entirely of Haiku's' recently, but we'll see if I finish it lol. I have a hard time forcing myself to write stuff without school to procrastinate on.

Have a great night everyone <<<33 cya Monday!