Wittles

*Lets out really long sigh* I had a pretty awful week last week. It was absolutely exhausting and I couldn't do anything and I was sick and it was just all around blech. But I did get some solid character/story ideas, so yay! Also learned some stuff about drawing so I can draw gooder which is really helpful.

So this may sound like a bad thing, or like something I shouldn't think is good, but I think it's something good. At least something that's potentially helpful. I most likely have bipolar 2, almost absolutely certainly some sort of sleep disorder that's some weird form of insomnia (I've tried so many times to fix my sleep schedule so i get enough sleep an wake up on time and it never works no matter what I do). I did some research about those things cuz it's kind been on my mind for a while and I have all of the symptoms which leads me to believe that I do have those. I'm not gonna say for sure until I talk to a doctor, but all signs point to the affirmative. It sounds bad, but it's a huge relief for me to think that there might be a reason that I'm having such a hard time doing things most people would be able to do with relative ease other than I'm just a lazy nobody who doesn't bother to do what he needs to. It feels very validating to me that there's a reason why I struggle with basic tasks like waking up on time. 

In the words of twenty one pilots: "Our brains are sick but that's okay!" -Fake you out