SmilingPanda19

I just wanted to point out something.

In order for a man to be my future husband, he has to beat or be equal to my best friend (my ‘mama’) and I. (Platonic duh) 

Let me spell it out for you. 
 

My best friend:

- Gives me her hoodies

- gives me her rings and bracelets 

- says good morning and goodnight to me everyday 

- says she loves me every day 

- holds my hand every day on the bus because im deprived of physical attention 

- has lots of cute nicknames for me (Princess, baby girl, sweetpea, etc)

- loves and cares about all the same people I do 

- didn’t exactly ask for me, but still took on the challenge of all my emotions, mental craziness, and much more 

- treats me like I’m just a little kid in a way that makes me feel small because I feel like I have to be grown up 24/7 and grew up too fast

- loves to read my writing and inspires it

- tells me when she needs to leave or go somewhere so I’m not left panicking 

- kisses me on my head when I need it

- holds me when I’m stressed

- she can just tell when I’m upset even though I’m really good at hiding it

- never yells or screams at me unexpectedly or unnecessarily

- thinks all my weird quirks are cute and lovable (There’s a list…)

-  helps me love myself

- tells me I’m beautiful even if I refuse to believe it

- laughs with me when I laugh, cries with me when I cry, is somehow always right beside me even when she isn’t there 

- understanding that I’m not perfect and feel like I have to be

- let’s me take care of her despite her grumbling

- shows her love to me by taking care of me and I show my love to her by trusting her and letting her

- struggles to allow someone to help  (due to trauma) but understands that I try

- understands all my fears (claustrophobia, fear of railroad tracks, fear of disappointment, fear of being alone, etc.)

- many many many more reasons why I love her so so much, to the moon and back, to pieces, times a million, and more than she could ever know 

My future husband better use my best friend as a ROLE MODEL because I do not know how I stumbled across her two years ago. I truly feel like God brought her to me for this time if my life to be this person. I am terrified for my senior year because she will be gone to college, but I know God has a plan. I know there is a reason we happened upon each other and immediately clicked. We didn’t exactly ask to find each other, we didn’t go looking, but we did somehow, by the miracle of God, find each other. She has been such a blessing in my life and I needed to tell someone that. Thank you.