Silver Phantom

I finally got my Grandad to start Way of Kings

Here he is about 15 minutes in

And here he is about 50 minutes in

Finally got into a DnD group! I have been trying to find one for what feels like forever now and last Saturday I did. I am playing a Paladin for the first time and it’s great, hopefully won’t die immediately. I also will be posting new photo tomorrow, to my paint thread, for the first time in like a month and a half. 

Happy birthday

I been feeling down today. One thing that helps me is listening to sad music while exercising. I guess it helps me process ore something. But I also need to add in one of my hype songs like every 5th song to balance it out. If any of you need some song to either cry to of get hyped as the storm it self let me know

I also just so Fall Guy today, and I loved it. Its a really sweet movie and would highly recommend it

I used to have one of these as a kid so when I found one at a garage sale and had to buy it. Been great listening to music again like this.

If a single one of you call me old I will find you

I am tired. Really tired. I am tired of trying everything I can and feeling like I am in the same place. I am tired of knowing that on some level I am lying to myself about doing everything I can. I am tired of looking around and see happy people when all I want to do is scream. I am tired of hanging out with friends and feeling good, truly feeling good and thinking to myself “maybe tonight will be different. Maybe tonight my mind wont wonder into the darkness.” I am tired of my mind wondering into the darkness anyway. I am tired of committing to stop procrastinating, actually stop procrastinating, feeling better about not procrastinating and doing the things I need to get down and the hobbies I love, and then going back to procrastinating. I am tired of not being happy with who I am, and yet feeling that I am so close to being who I want to be. I feel accomplished and proud of who i am. And yet there are those parts. The parts I am scared of. The parts that come out late at night, or when I miss a day of medication or when I get into an argument with someone who’s an idiot and I just want to scream. 

I am tired of being one step away from happiness 

Sorry about that but it’s been a ruff week. The main thing is that there has been a problem with my pharmacist so I went a few days with out my ADHD meds, and then right when I got that figured out there was another problem so I had to go a few day without my depression meds sooo… Things have been tuff.

But on the bright side I discover like my new favorite Pokemon and it has gotten me back into Pokemon after like 4 years of nothing. If y’all want to see a great Pokemon look up Tinkaton

also new Markiplier video 

Happy birthday 

Happy Birthday 

Happy Mother’s Day everyone. Hope y’all have a good day

I DIDN’T GET TICKETS FOR DRAGON STEEL!! 

As some of you may know the dragonsteel 2024 website had some issues and kept booting us off so we couldn’t get a single ticket. I hope y'all did manage to get some.

Dragonsteel Nexus tickets open tomorrow!!!!

Happy free comic book day and happy star wars day everyone. Because those two holidays just happened to line up this year and since the next time that happens wont be till 2030 and the last time they lined up like that was 2019  this is the nerdiest day for the day of the is decade. Bask in the glory friends. 

Good morning everyone. As y’all now, this Saturday is May fourth also known as Star Wars day. But what some of you may not know is that since it is the first Saturday of May, it is also free comic book day.

So if you are into comics or what to be, head to your local comic shop and pick up a free comic. This year there are a lot of good choices and I hope all of you take this opportunity to pick on up.

Wait… If a beaver got turned into a vampire would their teeth look like this?

Or this?

Dragon Steel 2024 ticket price announcement!!! And only one week till they go on sale. Hope to see y'all there

My Dog died. I haven’t cried this hard in over a year.

I am worried for my parents. My Dad insisted on being with him when he passed, and my Mom refused to let my Dad be alone when it happened. So they are both are not doing great. I am also worried for our cat George. For what ever reason when we got George as a kitten he latched onto our dog. He always wanted to sleep next to him (even though the dog rarely did) and George would even wait till he was asleep and then sneak up next to him so he wouldn’t notice.

He was old, over 12. It was his time though, so I guess that’s some comfort. I won’t go into detail but he was in almost constant pain and there was nothing we could do for him. So we gave him one last good day. They took him on a walk, through the McDonald drive through with the windows rolled down so he could say hi to the people at the window. Then he went to the vet just a few hours ago.

I am 21, he has been around for more than half my life. What really sucks is I didn’t get to say goodbye. My parents moved to Washington two years ago and it was to expensive to fly me up last minute to say goodbye. So we FaceTime last night and I said goodbye over the phone.

It really hit me after that. I just went to my room and started to listen to any song I could fine about loosing your dog. You can guess how well that went. I  then continued to spiral by starting to write my own song about loosing my dog in my head. And no, I do not have any skill or training in song writing.

So, for the last time. Good bye Chance, you where a good boy 

I just found this website. That if you put in your battle ship game data, it will calculate where the next most likely spot to hit will be. This is going to be fun to mess with people

https://apps.nulliq.dev/battleship

Just ordered my first part of my costume for dragon steel 2024. Will show y’all when it gets here also I have found a really good comic book. Speciality @Edema Rue @Kajsa I think you guys would like it but I would recommend this to anyone. Its called Gotham Academy and it a fun comic that is set in Gotham but doesn’t focus on batman or superhero’s. Heres the cover and the inside cover of the Trade paper back version 

Happy birthday, can’t wait to see more of grey

I haven’t talked about this yet on here. But I am currently on a mission for my church.  I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later day saints and am about 15 months into a service mission. It’s been really great and I have truly seen miracles and many amazing things. I know this may come as a surprise especially to those who I met at Dragonsteel because I didn’t mention it. But I just didn’t feel comfortable at the time. This post is more about me becoming more comfortable about sharing my beliefs than a life update. So if you’re not interested or don’t really care that’s fine. This is for me. This community has meant so much to me the past several months and has given me the motivations and courage to push my self to do more and be more proactive. You are all great and I know I am going to be here a long time. I hope this doesn’t make anyone feel alienated, that is the last thing I want, but I am who I am. And that is a son of God, a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later day Saints, a Missionary of the Lord, and have depression, ADHD, dyslexia, and dysgraphia. I know this is a lot to say for one statues update but I felt that I needed to stope being afraid to have the discussions about my beliefs and my struggles. I have been on meds for years for both my depression and ADHD, and have been in some dark place both before and after I started the meds. I also have had my faith tested many time, but I also have had it reinforced countless times.

If anyone has any questions about my faith, my mission, or my disability feel free to ask. And if anyone is struggling with dark thoughts, whether it do to depression or not, please know that I am always willing to talk about it. I have been in the deepest depths of depression before and I will all ways be here if someone need to talk, or even is they just need someone to listen.  

I hope you all have a great day and cant wait to see what happens next on this amazing sight 

Your friends and fellow world hopper

Evan (aka Silver Phantom)

So two things today. First is I finally finished my woodworking project. To be clear, I made this only because I am a Lord of the Rings fan and I specifically really like Gandalf. So…. I made his pipe

Again I dont intend to actually smoke with it. Nor do I think I actually could. How a made it was not how a real pipe is made so I pretty sure I would die if I tried to smoke with it. Anyway it was a really fun project and I am planing on making a few more

Also today was my first day of my new work out retune (and my first ever workout retune) my goal is to be able to dunk a basketball before end of summer. I will be posting my progress here weekly. The NBA regulation hight for there hoop is 10ft. My reach is 7 feet 9 inches. And my current standing jump hight is 8 feet 11 inches. It is also recommended to have about 6 inches above the rim in your jump in order to dunk. So I have 19 inches to go for standing. Yes I know that my running jump is higher, but I don’t have a way to measure that short of running and then jumping full speed into a wall, so I will get back to y’all on that  

Happy birthday 

Lady’s and gentleman, I give you Dino Nugget (yes, she will be going by Dino)

I just put up a poll to name my new chicken, if y’all what to be apart of that go check it out. I also am almost done with my woodworking project and I can’t wait to show you guys

Happy late birthday