Silver Phantom

So I know I just posted but man has today been tough. I slept till one because I simple didn’t have the will or the hope to get up. I finished my shield which is nice but I can’t stop seeing all the flaws in it, an din my self. I know none of us can be perfect but I still hold my self to that impossible standard. My roommate is about to move out and I am going to be all alone, and I don’t know if I can do it. I miss my family, I miss my home. I know I don’t actual know any of you but I need to get this out. I am two decades into this joke we call life and I am in one of the worst places of my life. One day I am jumping off the wall and laughing the next I can barely hold it together. My therapist is booked till December so that sucks. I am afraid about how I feel right now, and I am afraid tomorrow is going to be worst. 

Thank you to everyone who has said kind things to me on this website, they do help. And thank you to everyone else who has been brave enough to open up here as well. It helps knowing that others are feeling like this. And it gave me the courage to write this out. Just getting this out there is helping