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Hello!
I didn't fail school!
I made it!
And I went berry picking this morning!
SpoilerSpoilerI wrote a thing last night:
SpoilerI wish pretending away the painWas a legitimate option.I wish saying “I’m fine.” Worked.I wish they made bandaids forBullet holes,For broken hearts,Crushed spirits,Twisted minds…I wish that I knew how to heal theWorld.I wish I had a better wayTo fix thingsThan over apologizing forEverything.If I had the power to changeThings,If I didn’t read so much in a singleWord,Sentence,Body movement…If my mind didn’t assume the worstIf I was stronger than my anxietyIf I wasn’t so much,If I could learn how to beWithout hurting so many,If I could shrink my emotions,Make them invisible,Not burden others with them,If I could hide,Have thicker walls…If I was less vulnerable.If I could hold myself together…If I had the right words,If I was less of a mistake.If I wasn’t so selfish,If I thought the world didn’tRevolve around me and myStupidstormingInsecuritiesIf I had the strengthTo resist,To make something of myselfTo get a jobLive up to expectationsIf I wasn’t a failureIf the voices were quieterWhat if there wasA bandaid forSelf hatred?Something to cover it up,Hide it from view,Not let people see…I’m a failure.When there’s no one,I’m still here.I’m backsliding…Do I care?If this spiralResults in my death,Would that beSo bad?I’m so tired.Tired of trying to fly.In my mind, to try and fly,You must firstFind a cliff,And jump.If you die, then you know,You belong in the dirt.You don’t deserve to fly.A stranger.I thought I knew you.But even youDon’t deserveWhat I haveTo offer.I wouldn’t wishThe burden of meAnd the wreck I amOn my worst enemy,Much less you,My friend.I don't need an answer.Maybe, all I really needed,Was someone to hearA few more words.I also did some henna the other day
SpoilerTis a good reminder.
I'm gonna post the rest of the berry pics in the photography thread cause they're so aesthetic!
One Blood.
~Stick
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SpoilerYou don't mind if I steal all those berries, right?
SpoilerHa, just kidding.
SpoilerI'm going to steal them anyway.
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