Anguished_One

If pressure makes diamonds, how the hell am I still coal?

she/her

With @SmilingPanda19 and @Part of The Narative in our Walmart dumpster

I love books, books, books, Brandon Sanderson books, God, asking questions, my cats, my family, my friends, my house, buying expensive Stormlight Archive t shirts from Etsy, writing my own stories with my writing group ( aka my three best friends and me) making valiant attempts at writing romance, writing "juicy" scenes, avidly hating math, being socially awkward, drawing, memes, nightblood, singing songs from various musicals (HAMILTON! LES MIS!!! IN THE HEIGHTS! NEWSIES! THE GREATEST SHOWMAN!!) and movies, country music, gardening, animals, foreign cultures, the beach, the mountains, geeking out with my friends about all kinds of junk, eating gummy bears, exercising. POETRY! PHOTOGRAPHY!! PHILOSOPHY!! QUESTIONS!! ECONOMICS!! DEBATE! cOnSpIrAcY!!!!! oh, and did I mention reading? ( This is NOT in order of importance)

*AHAHAHAHAHAHA* ~Hermes at all times

IF YOU READ THIS YOU JUST LOST THE GAME!!!
:DDD

Quotes formerly in "Contact Methods":

I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory; this is where it gets me, on my feet, the enemy ahead of me, if this is the end of me, at least I have a friend with me, weapon in my hand, a command, and my men with me. ~ Hamilton

I don't think that anyone gets it So I don't wanna tell anybody what really goin' on in my head I just wanna be alone and listen to the music and let it tell me the way I need to feel So I don't think I'm defective ~ Hurt Myself, Ekoh

I need a break from my brain From the doubt, from the stress, from the pain This anxiety is killing me and keeping me awake I need a break from my temper It's exhausting to live with the anger It weighs me down and it holds me back ~ Take Me Away, New Medicine


I see you Crying in a gown that's blue Screaming through a breathing tube "How'd I get to this place?" I see you Wondering how you came unglued Feeling like your whole life's screwed "Who could love me this way?" ~ ICU, Citizen Soldier

All my life I had to keep fighting And I'm a prove 'em wrong or I'm a die trying Head like a stone, heart like a lion I'm a prove 'em wrong or I'm a die trying ~ Die Trying, New Medicine

Used to pull down my sleeves Used to put makeup on So everyone would think I'm fine and nothing's wrong I buried all the pain, used to feel so ashamed Of all the things I wrote about myself with razor blades ~ Tattoos Citizen, Soldier


Broken legs, but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion ~ Mansion, NF

THIS IS SO LONG WTC

SONG THAT IS SO RELATABLE IT'S SCARY:
I'm there when anyone needs me
Just picking up broken pieces
When you're shattered on the floor and you're bleeding
I'll stay around, I'm not leaving
Somehow I still don't belong
I feel stupid when I talk
Cause I can't tell if you're listening
I need, I need, I need somebody
More than just a
Weight leaning on me
Everyone opening up
Bout their dark side
What about mine?
What about mine?
Guess I'm an
Outsider
I keep it all on the inside
Nobody sees it, silent when I cry
Just throw everyone's issues on top of mine
Worry bout both at the same time
Somehow I still don't belong
I feel stupid when I talk
Cause I can't tell if you're listening
I need, I need, I need somebody
More than just a
Weight leaning on me
Everyone opening up
Bout their dark side
What about mine?
What about mine?
Guess I'm an
Outsider
I need, I need, I need somebody
More than just a
Weight leaning on me
Everyone opening up
Bout their dark side
What about mine?
What about mine?
Guess I'm an
Outsider
~ Outsider by Rachel Grae