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Toxic
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I have toxicPeopleIn my life.I’m close to them.I love them.I don’t want toLeave them.I said I would never leave.I said that I was there for them.ButI can only getHurt so many timesBefore my trust is broken.Before the traumaOvertakes me.I need to leave.But I don’t want themHurt like I have been.I don’t want toPut anyone elseThrough that pain.I love them.I promised.I want to be thereBut it hurtsIt hurts mentally,Emotionally,Once or twice,Physically.But I can’t leave,Right?Would they leaveIf the roles were reversed?Do IEven careEnough to leave?I welcome the pain.It feels right.I just don’t care.I feel toxic.I am so messed up.I make others worry,I make them uncomfortable,Upset,Stressed,What ifI’m the toxic one?If they feel trapped?If I just let them go…If I just left,If I rebuiltAll the wallsAround my heart.If I went backTo being alone.It’s what’s bestFor everyone,Right?They don’t needThe toxic friend.They are hurt.They wish they could escape.But they don’t want to hurt me.I can stand the pain.My heart may break,But I can hide it.My life may crash,But I can loose myself andNot exist.I can close myself offFrom everyoneAnd everything.That’s what’s best.For everyone.They have other friends.Ones who aren’tToxic.I am theToxicFriendAnd I’mSorry.~ Stick 1-25-24- Show previous comments 1 more
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Yeah…I been there. Just keep breathing
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