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  1. Heeellllllo ladies and gents! (and everyone else too ❤️^_^ )

     

    I just wanted to say

    That I love you all,

    and you're amazing,

    and so kind and generous and sweet and just what I need sometimes.

    Unfortunately, I have new "guidelines" (IT'S ACTUALLY RESTRICTIONS DON'T LISTEN TO THEM IT'S A TRAP-)

    Regarding the shard, and I get one (1) hour of time online on Saturdays and Sundays only for the "foreseeable future" I'm not very happy about this, as you can imagine.

    I'm sorry to all those who I roleplayed with, I'll be pretty inactive in that department. Kill my children if you want. (Roleplay characters only though, leave my adopted kids alone or else.)

    If you want other contact info from me, or other places you can find me not listed in my about me, then feel free to PM me!

    I'll still be here to talk to all you lovely folks.

    Love and hugs and cookies spikes and muffins,

    ~ Stick

    P.S. My bestie Radiant might be joining the community towards the end of August!!! She's @Part Of The Narrative's cousin lol

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      You can never have too much random info in your about me

      *nods wisely*

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  2. “Hey, y’all, it’s me! Thaidakar! 
    It’s been so long… I love you guys. Idk what else really to say beyond that. That’s really why I’m writing this. 
    Since it’s me writing this, there’s only one thing I can do. And that’s type up a bunch of things with several different endings. *passes around jars of Root* this is gonna be a long one.

    I’m proud of you, I’m proud of how far you’ve come.I wish I could’ve been there to help out. You’re amazing. All of you are amazing and just wonderful people who I’ve had the pleasure of being among before. I’m lucky to have even come in contact with all of you (yes, even you.) I want to see you grow and change into the best version of yourself you can be, but I can’t. The world is rough and it’s hard and we can’t always have what we want. When it’s all said and done, I hope that you can raise your glass and say, like the song, “I lived.” Through all the pains, through all the joys, be yourself. Follow who you are.
    Oh I love you guys… I want to talk to y’all, jokes around, share the rough times and the good times. It all boils down to that, I guess.

    A couple things about my life. I’m still working on my book. It’s gone in a couple revolutions, and I’m still figuring out how the heck one does this writing thing. It’s been fun to figure out. I went to Trek and High Adventure. I learned a lot at those. I changed clubs. I reorganized my bookshelves a couple times. I missed y’all. OH IM ALSO ANGRY AT BRANDON FOR MAKING THE BALL EIGHTEEN PLUS. WHYYYY.

    Mods, I just want to say… thank you. Thank you for dealing with my stupidity over the past few years. I don’t think anyone could’ve done much better than what y’all have done. I respect y’all immensely.

    Y’all are awesome people, all of you on the Shard. I miss you guys. I’ll see you around, I guess. Maybe I’ll stop by Dragonsteel one of these years. Get to say hi. 

    A few specific messages. 

    @Edema Rue whatever her username me is, you lost the game. Officially. And you’re a nerd. So take that!

    @Aeoryiyou’re pretty cool. We’ve argued before, but you’re a cool person. You got this, even if you don’t think so.

    @Archie I can’t begin to say how much our conversations have helped me change how I look at the world for the better. You’ve helped me so much in ways you haven’t seen. You’re an awesome guy and I hope you have a great life.

    @Chaos I want to punch you. Not because of what you might think. No, cause you’ve hyped me up so much for Ba Ado Mishram on shard cast that im almost definitely gonna be disappointed that WaT isn’t like a sole pov full flashback story about her and Shallan. Know that it’s your fault when I send an angry letter ti Brandon asking for more Mishram.

    @Kajsa you’re super good at singing and drawing and like everything. You’re awesome. Just know that. K? 

    @missionary sharders whether on the shard or not, Y’all are my people. When y’all finish y’all’s missions  and have conveted whole cities, I ain’t gonna be surprised.

    tlt you’re like my child. @The Nameless Oneyou better take care of my plot child. XD you’re also awesome, btw. You’re an amazing writer who I’ve had the pleasure of writing with for the past few years. I love our characters interactions. We both understand the lore and it’s fun to see how they all play off around.

    @Just-A-Stick whatever. I win btw. You’re pretty cool I guess… YOU DO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY TOO REMEMBER THAT.

    @Robin Sedaiyou’re like amazing. You have my vote for president even though you’re not in the US. I win btw. Calvin and Hobbes is frickin amazing.

    @Ancient Elantrianyou’ve lost the game, I’m afraid.

    @Shardwatcher01you’re a good person, really cool and awesome. Do me a favor and remember that. *hugs*

    @TwinSoulsI lied btw. Take that as you will. *winks* you’re awesome.

    @Mediumyou’re really cool. Btw you’re going to the same school as my cousin so if a rando comes up to you and says that some guy says hi, it isn’t the Italian mafia. It’s the Ghostbloods. Also you’re music is actually great.

    @Boomerang Guy*chortles waffles* mate, start that up again- it’s golden.

    @emulationstromenkin QUARK

    And, to settle an old score…
    Pineapple on pizza is oookaaaaayyy I guuuueeeeesssssss. Harrumph.
    XD

    I should, before I say goodbye, mention something. I’m not in a relationship ish thing. Not at all. I’m not in love. That’s impossible, after all. And, most of all, I definitely have never said “I love you” to one person in specific. And, even if I did, I wouldn’t have said it like every day. Pfft, I’d never do that. (I love you too Mr. Black Sock, Mr. Almost Boyfriend - Panda) 

    And now… it’s time to say goodbye again. I’ve changed so much, and so have y’all. When things start to go rough, remember there’s a twisted writer who knows you can get through, even if you don’t.
    Y’all are amazing.
    It’s time to go.
    *tips overly large hat* (don’t think I forgot you, @Mr Misting 
    Goodbye
    Don’t die without me
    From the one, the only, the ridiculous, the Ghostblood, 
    Thaidakar the moth-(this program has been interrupted for a brief message from our sponsor. Root. When life gets you down, Root gets you flying! Try Root today for the quick price of imagination. And your kidneys. And your liver. It’s the quenchiest!)-ra kaiju! 

    P.S. if you hacked me, and you know who you are, then realize that doing that is kinda illegal. Just putting that out there.

    P.P.S. Hoid for president

    P.P.P.S. I swear this is the last one. You are amazing, whoever you are reading this.”
     

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      THAID IF YOU HURT MY PRINCESS YOU WILL BE ON MY BAD SIDE FOR ETERNITY!

      AND NO, YOU DON'T WIN. *narrows eyes threateningly*

      I have a spike and I'm not afraid to use it.

       

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  3. *sighs*

    See y'all in August

    -stick

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      I'M STILL ALIVE!!!!! (AND MAYBE MORE THAN A BIT JEALOUS OF CASH'S VOICE BUT THAT'S BESIDES THE POINT-)

      I HAD TO LEEEEEAAAAVVVEEEEEEEEEEEE

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  4. Um...

    Hi...

    I'm here

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      @shortcake- I think you're cool too! B) 

      @Just a Silvereye- YES I'M ALIVE, BEEN DOING OK I GUESS, I DON'T KNOW, BUT IT'S CONTAGIOUS, The last month has been good but lonely and sad and low-key stressful and frustrating, but there were highlights. I left cuz my parents "don't believe in social media" and "The shard isn't a writing and book platform, it's social media and they said they don't like it and everything -_- <_< :( 

       

      @BlueWildRye- I'm back! (kinda) yeah, I'll look forward to meetin' some new peoples and everythin.

      @Cinnamon- Hiiiii Cinny!!!!!!

      @Slowswift- Hii!

      @Through The Living Glass- Hewo!! Dat's a cute wabit ❤️ 

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  5. Um...

    Hi...

    I'm here

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      I'm alive, but I feel like I should be asking you that question.

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  6.  

    Guys I'm sorry I haven't been active in forever buuuut

    I FOUND OUT I HAVE WAVY HAIR
    I'VE BEEN LIVING A LIE
     

    So my mom neglected to mention that the reason my hair puffs out when it dries and the reason our hair is wavy when we get out of the shower is because she has wavy hair and she just DOESN'T STYLE IT

    ...

    SO I ALSO HAVE WAVY HAIR AND I STYLED IT AND IT LOOKS AMAZING

    anyways what's up with y'all

     

  7. sequel to the previous su:

    i uploaded the sketch to my ipad and played around with colors :3 

    we have regular and then golden hour lighting

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    yep

  8. My friends,

    My mission call for The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints gets here on Tuesday  

    At 7 PM CST, there will be a facebook live here where I will read aloud my call.

    The live will begin promptly at 6:50, to allow people time to join and get ready, and at 7:00 PM sharp, I will introduce myself, who’s with me, and then read my call.

    I’d love for you all to watch if you can.

  9. jus realized I never posted a picture of my hair

    @Anguished_One I know you wanted to see this and also maybe @Kajsa?

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    ehhehehehee

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    I don't care if yall know what I look like you guys have already seen pictures o me anyway haha

  10. jus realized I never posted a picture of my hair

    @Anguished_One I know you wanted to see this and also maybe @Kajsa?

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    ehhehehehee

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    I don't care if yall know what I look like you guys have already seen pictures o me anyway haha

  11. jus realized I never posted a picture of my hair

    @Anguished_One I know you wanted to see this and also maybe @Kajsa?

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    ehhehehehee

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    I don't care if yall know what I look like you guys have already seen pictures o me anyway haha

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      WAIT WHY???

      ALLLLL OF ITTTTT???????????????

      :OOOOOOO

      GIRLYYYYYYY

      YOU'RE AS BAD AS VEIL WHEN SHE KEEPS GIVING HERSELF HAIRCUTS ALL THE TIIIME

      CAN YOU TEXT ME A PICTURE???

       

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  12. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

    OH MY CRAP GUYS

    SO MUCH HAPPEND

    I GOT TO SPEND THE WHOLE WEEKEND AT VEIL'S HOUSE AND WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND SHE'S AMAZING AND WE DIDN'T SLEEP AND WE WATCHED MOVIES AND HAD DEEP CONVERSATIONS IN HER BED AND I BROKE HER BED AGAIN AND WE SLEP ON THE FLOOR AND DIED IN THE HEAT AND TALKED ABOUT BOYS AND GIGGLED AND CACKLED AND HUGGED AND HAD SOOOOOOOOOOO MUUUUUUCH FUUUUUUUUUUNNN!!!!

    SHE'S AMAZING AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!!!

    OH OH OH AND I DID ART ALL DAY SATURDAY AND IT'S SO GOOD, YOU MIGHT WANNA SIT DOWN SO THAT YOU DON'T DIE BY HOW GOOD IT IS AND HOW PROUD OF IT I AM :DDDDDDD

    IT'S A PANTING OF AN EYE

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    Paper: 140LB cold press watercolor paper (5x7 I think)

    Medium: GoldFaber Auqa Markers, Faber Castell watercolor pencils, Prismacolor watercolor pencils, assorted tubed watercolor, white gel pen, fine black liner pens.

    Technique: Wet on wet as well as lots of layering and shadowing

    I'M SO HAPPY WITH IT WTC

    AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

     

    I'M SO HY[ER I'M LITERALLY BOUNCING AND I LOVE MY LIFE AND I HAD A GOOD DAY!

    I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH OKAY???

    YOU'RE LITERALLY THE BEST!

    ❤️❤️❤️ 

     

    One Blood.

     

    ~ STICK ❤️❤️ 

  13. jus realized I never posted a picture of my hair

    @Anguished_One I know you wanted to see this and also maybe @Kajsa?

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    ehhehehehee

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    I don't care if yall know what I look like you guys have already seen pictures o me anyway haha

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

      YES!!!!!

      SHORTY!!!!!!!!

      WE'RE TWINS!!!!

      :D :D 

      LOVE YOU SO MUCH GIRLY!

      ❤️ 

      (YOU'RE GORGEOUS)

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  14. Hello!

    I didn't fail school!

    I made it!

    And I went berry picking this morning!

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    I wrote a thing last night:

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    I wish pretending away the pain
    Was a legitimate option.
     
    I wish saying “I’m fine.” Worked.
     
    I wish they made bandaids for
    Bullet holes,
    For broken hearts,
    Crushed spirits,
    Twisted minds…
     
    I wish that I knew how to heal the
    World.
     
    I wish I had a better way
    To fix things
    Than over apologizing for
    Everything.
     
    If I had the power to change
    Things,
    If I didn’t read so much in a single
    Word,
    Sentence,
    Body movement…
     
    If my mind didn’t assume the worst
    If I was stronger than my anxiety
     
    If I wasn’t so much,
    If I could learn how to be
    Without hurting so many,
     
    If I could shrink my emotions,
    Make them invisible,
    Not burden others with them,
    If I could hide,
    Have thicker walls…
     
    If I was less vulnerable.
    If I could hold myself together…
    If I had the right words,
    If I was less of a mistake.
     
    If I wasn’t so selfish,
    If I thought the world didn’t
    Revolve around me and my
    Stupid
    storming
    Insecurities
     
    If I had the strength
    To resist,
    To make something of myself
    To get a job
    Live up to expectations
     
    If I wasn’t a failure
    If the voices were quieter
     
    What if there was
    A bandaid for
    Self hatred?
     
    Something to cover it up,
    Hide it from view,
    Not let people see…
     
    I’m a failure.
     
    When there’s no one,
    I’m still here.
     
    I’m backsliding…
    Do I care?
    If this spiral
    Results in my death,
    Would that be
    So bad?
     
    I’m so tired.
     
    Tired of trying to fly.
    In my mind, to try and fly,
    You must first
    Find a cliff,
    And jump.
     
    If you die, then you know,
    You belong in the dirt.
    You don’t deserve to fly.
     
     
    A stranger.
     
     
     
     
    I thought I knew you.
     
    But even you
    Don’t deserve
    What I have
    To offer.
     
    I wouldn’t wish
    The burden of me
    And the wreck I am
    On my worst enemy,
    Much less you,
    My friend.
     
    I don't need an answer.
    Maybe, all I really needed,
    Was someone to hear
    A few more words.

    I also did some henna the other day

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    Tis a good reminder.

    I'm gonna post the rest of the berry pics in the photography thread cause they're so aesthetic! 

     

    One Blood.

     

    ~Stick

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      @Just a Silvereye- You may have some! *receives hug*

      @Silver Phantom- We got 6 quarts! :D It took us about half an hour to pick them all

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  15. Hello!

    I didn't fail school!

    I made it!

    And I went berry picking this morning!

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    I wrote a thing last night:

    Spoiler
    I wish pretending away the pain
    Was a legitimate option.
     
    I wish saying “I’m fine.” Worked.
     
    I wish they made bandaids for
    Bullet holes,
    For broken hearts,
    Crushed spirits,
    Twisted minds…
     
    I wish that I knew how to heal the
    World.
     
    I wish I had a better way
    To fix things
    Than over apologizing for
    Everything.
     
    If I had the power to change
    Things,
    If I didn’t read so much in a single
    Word,
    Sentence,
    Body movement…
     
    If my mind didn’t assume the worst
    If I was stronger than my anxiety
     
    If I wasn’t so much,
    If I could learn how to be
    Without hurting so many,
     
    If I could shrink my emotions,
    Make them invisible,
    Not burden others with them,
    If I could hide,
    Have thicker walls…
     
    If I was less vulnerable.
    If I could hold myself together…
    If I had the right words,
    If I was less of a mistake.
     
    If I wasn’t so selfish,
    If I thought the world didn’t
    Revolve around me and my
    Stupid
    storming
    Insecurities
     
    If I had the strength
    To resist,
    To make something of myself
    To get a job
    Live up to expectations
     
    If I wasn’t a failure
    If the voices were quieter
     
    What if there was
    A bandaid for
    Self hatred?
     
    Something to cover it up,
    Hide it from view,
    Not let people see…
     
    I’m a failure.
     
    When there’s no one,
    I’m still here.
     
    I’m backsliding…
    Do I care?
    If this spiral
    Results in my death,
    Would that be
    So bad?
     
    I’m so tired.
     
    Tired of trying to fly.
    In my mind, to try and fly,
    You must first
    Find a cliff,
    And jump.
     
    If you die, then you know,
    You belong in the dirt.
    You don’t deserve to fly.
     
     
    A stranger.
     
     
     
     
    I thought I knew you.
     
    But even you
    Don’t deserve
    What I have
    To offer.
     
    I wouldn’t wish
    The burden of me
    And the wreck I am
    On my worst enemy,
    Much less you,
    My friend.
     
    I don't need an answer.
    Maybe, all I really needed,
    Was someone to hear
    A few more words.

    I also did some henna the other day

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    Tis a good reminder.

    I'm gonna post the rest of the berry pics in the photography thread cause they're so aesthetic! 

     

    One Blood.

     

    ~Stick

  16. Poem

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    Identity

     
    “You’d be nothing without her, you know?”
     
    Yeah, I know…
     
    “You’re lucky she’s your friend, or you’d still have no style.”
     
    Yeah… very lucky…
     
    “You’re just trying to be like her.”
     
    I know…
     
     
    “You’re such a good writer!
    You’re so pretty!
    You’re so kind!
    So gentle!
    You’re a good person.”
     
    Is that really who I am?
    Or am I just the one
    Who stumbles along,
    Stealing pieces of
    Other people and
    Calling them mine.
     
    I pretend I know how to act
    Pretend I have a style
    Pretend I actually know what
    I’m doing
     
    Pretend I understand your jokes
    Because ignorance might make
    Me stupid
     
    I have no identity other than
    This mask
     
    My ever-shifting,
    Reflecting mask
    Turning tightly to keep
    The wounds inside
    And invisible
     
    But underneath,
    Inside,
    There’s just a lonely
    Shadow
    An emptiness
    A ghost,
    Watching the outside world,
    Trying to be normal
    Trying to fit in,
    Yet slowly realizing,
    She never actually has
    Anywhere.
     
    She’s scared to adopt any identity,
    Even the things she tells herself.
    Because, if her entire identity
    Is Worthless,
    Is there any hope at all?
     
    Does she have an identity
    Away from her insecurities?
     
    Who is she, if not Broken?
    If not Lost?
    If not Hurting?
    Scarred?
    Ugly?
    Fearful?
    A Liar?
    Stupid,
    Not good enough,
    Fat,
    A burden,
    Messed up,
    Abandoned,
    Selfish,
    A mistake,
    A shadow?
     
    Not fully dead,
    But not alive,
    Either.
     
    Halfway here,
    Halfway gone.
     
    A failure.
    A stranger.
    Different,
    Strange,
    Weird,
    Creepy…
     
    One who doesn’t fully belong
    Anywhere,
    So why is she still here?
     
    One who selfishly
    Needs to be needed,
    Who wishes that someone
    Expressed their love for her
    The way she does for others,
    Who’s clingy and scared,
    But supposed to be strong,
    Who’s covered in wounds,
    Some visible, some not,
    She loses herself in stories,
    Because maybe there,
    She can find herself.
    She won’t be such
    A burden,
    Such a mistake,
    So needy,
    Helpless.
     
    Even if she only finds
    A few fragments,
    It’s maybe better than
    Nothing.
    Because she,
    Is nothing.
     
     
    ~ Stick 6-18-24

     

  17. *cries*

    I hate it when other people are right!

    Look!

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    SHE WAS RIGHT

    😭

  18. Poem

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    Identity

     
    “You’d be nothing without her, you know?”
     
    Yeah, I know…
     
    “You’re lucky she’s your friend, or you’d still have no style.”
     
    Yeah… very lucky…
     
    “You’re just trying to be like her.”
     
    I know…
     
     
    “You’re such a good writer!
    You’re so pretty!
    You’re so kind!
    So gentle!
    You’re a good person.”
     
    Is that really who I am?
    Or am I just the one
    Who stumbles along,
    Stealing pieces of
    Other people and
    Calling them mine.
     
    I pretend I know how to act
    Pretend I have a style
    Pretend I actually know what
    I’m doing
     
    Pretend I understand your jokes
    Because ignorance might make
    Me stupid
     
    I have no identity other than
    This mask
     
    My ever-shifting,
    Reflecting mask
    Turning tightly to keep
    The wounds inside
    And invisible
     
    But underneath,
    Inside,
    There’s just a lonely
    Shadow
    An emptiness
    A ghost,
    Watching the outside world,
    Trying to be normal
    Trying to fit in,
    Yet slowly realizing,
    She never actually has
    Anywhere.
     
    She’s scared to adopt any identity,
    Even the things she tells herself.
    Because, if her entire identity
    Is Worthless,
    Is there any hope at all?
     
    Does she have an identity
    Away from her insecurities?
     
    Who is she, if not Broken?
    If not Lost?
    If not Hurting?
    Scarred?
    Ugly?
    Fearful?
    A Liar?
    Stupid,
    Not good enough,
    Fat,
    A burden,
    Messed up,
    Abandoned,
    Selfish,
    A mistake,
    A shadow?
     
    Not fully dead,
    But not alive,
    Either.
     
    Halfway here,
    Halfway gone.
     
    A failure.
    A stranger.
    Different,
    Strange,
    Weird,
    Creepy…
     
    One who doesn’t fully belong
    Anywhere,
    So why is she still here?
     
    One who selfishly
    Needs to be needed,
    Who wishes that someone
    Expressed their love for her
    The way she does for others,
    Who’s clingy and scared,
    But supposed to be strong,
    Who’s covered in wounds,
    Some visible, some not,
    She loses herself in stories,
    Because maybe there,
    She can find herself.
    She won’t be such
    A burden,
    Such a mistake,
    So needy,
    Helpless.
     
    Even if she only finds
    A few fragments,
    It’s maybe better than
    Nothing.
    Because she,
    Is nothing.
     
     
    ~ Stick 6-18-24

     

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      @Through The Living Glass- I do know, and it's very much appreciated ❤️‍🩹

      @Just a Silvereye- Thank you so much! (did you actually cry? :o.

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  19. Did you know that playing Piano Man on the piano becomes much harder with a broken wrist?

    1. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      how did you break your wrist??

      Spoiler

      did you lose the game too many times or something??

       

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  20. Did you know that playing Piano Man on the piano becomes much harder with a broken wrist?

  21. *cries*

    I hate it when other people are right!

    Look!

    IMG_6110.jpg.2ebc666b1ef026b1ff06601304769bba.jpg

    SHE WAS RIGHT

    😭

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