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Unstable
SpoilerUnstable
My mind rocksIn the turbulent darknessIt wavers on the brinkOf a decision.A choice.A plan.I can’t continue.Everything hurts.Breathing is too much work.I’m drowning under all theseThingsThat I have to doI’m drifting,Lost in thought.I have a plan,I can justEnd it.I want it to happenI’m practically begging for itTo happen.It’s just too much.I can’t.I’m so sorry,But I just can’t.Can’t cry,Can’t feelAnything but this desire.Why am I here?I hate this.All of it.This pitiful,Broken,ScarredCage.I’m trapped in this cage.I know only oneWay to escape.That’s to justEnd it.I’m so tired.All I want is rest.I’m sorry,But it will happenOne dayI want it to be today.I can’t face tomorrow.AnotherDayOf torture.Trapped in my cage,This stupidEmptyCage.The cage I can’t escape.The cage I hate.This cage won’t be hereForever.I’ll end my own sufferingIt’s only a matter of time.Till my unstableMindBreaksI can’t waitI want it to be nowI want to leaveI’m dead inside,So why don’t I justFinish the job?That soundsWonderful.I wonderWho will be the firstOne to find myBody?My dad?Brother?Sister?Will it beMy mother?The one whoTrapped me in hereIn the first place?They mightBe devastated,But I’ll have foundMy peace.My friendsWill mourn,But they’ll move on.They can find other friends.In time,They’ll move on.And I’ll be left,Ashes scatteredAcross barren land,Finally at peaceWithin.I’ll be free.I’ll float,Without my cageTo hinder me.I’m saying goodbye.I’ll miss you,But this is what best.I’m sorry,But I can’t keep living in thisCage.I’ve tried to escape before,And I don’t know what’s stopped meI won’t be stopped again.I’m leaving.I’ve triedCutting my way outOf this cage,But it didn’t work.I have scars,But it’s worth itTo feel the painInstead of emptiness.The emptiness ofMy cage.I would askTo be saved,But I want thisNot a savior.I want the deathThe peace thatComes after.All I have to do isStop breathing.I won’t be unstable anymore.I’ll be gone.I’ll be gone.I’m leaving.Goodbye,Friends,Family,I’ll miss you.But I’m justToUnstable.~ Stick 2-7-24Scratches
SpoilerScratches
They areOnly scratches.Nothing more.They scar,They bleed,They hurt.But theyAre onlyScratches.And yet,I want them toBe more thanJust scratches.I’m tired of scratches.I’m tired of dripsOf blood.I want wounds.I want a river ofBlood.I want it all toGo away,At the point of thisKnife.I can picture it,I can start,But I can’t finish.I always fail.I always fail.I want toAdd more scratches.Maybe,If I get enough,I’ll finally die.Death by scratches.~ Stick 2-8-24I'm Sorry
SpoilerI’m Sorry
Dear friend,I’m so, so sorry.I’m sorry about last night.I’m sorry for the things I did,I’m sorry for the way I acted.I’m sorry for the way that I am.I’m sorry for my poor decisionsAfter,I’m sorry for causing youPain as well.I’m sorry for ruiningWhat you gave me.I’m sorry forSo many things.I’m sorryFor the bloodOn yourSweatshirt.I’m sorry.~ Stick 2-8-24- Show previous comments 2 more
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*hugs hugs hugs*
Eddie is much better at words than I am, but she’s right. It is absolutely worth it to stay alive. There really is hope, even though it can be nearly impossible to see. Keep breathing
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Stick, promise you'll remember that you are loved, okay?