Just-A-Stick

*flop*

You know when you feel really sick and super tired, and yet...

Here you are...

At school...

That's where I'm at right now.

I wanna curl up and sleep until my stomach settles and my head stops pounding...

*raises weak fist*

Schoolwork.

Yay.

*flop*

You know when you feel really sick and super tired, and yet...

Here you are...

At school...

That's where I'm at right now.

I wanna curl up and sleep until my stomach settles and my head stops pounding...

*raises weak fist*

Schoolwork.

Yay.

PLEASE READ!! As many of you know I went dragonsteel last year dressed as Kaladin. What many of you might not know is that my mom went as well. She had loved my photos of all the costume from dragonsteel 2022 she finally caved, and after a decade of begging her two she read way of kings. This lead her to coming to dragonsteel 2023 day one as Navani and day two as Vail. She loved it so much and was so happy that people liked her costumes. 

For her birthday I want to do something if you guys are willing to help. Below is the photos of her costumes. If you feel like it, please leave a comment about what you like about her costumes. Bonus point if you remember seeing her at the con. I will send them all to her for her birthday along with the other stuff I have in mind. Please tag anyone you think might be interested. I am really trying to show her how amazing her costumes were and how supportive this community is.

  @Aeoryi, @Canada Lover, @Cash67, @DefiantAllomancer, @Edema Rue, @Evie, @InfiniteInsanity, @Just-A-Stick, @Lotus Blossom, @Robin Sedai, @RoyalBeeMage, @SmilingPanda19, @Szeth_Pancakes, @Thaidakar the Ghostblood, @Weaver of Lights, @DramaQueen, 

Looks like a bot to me...

Looks like a bot to me...

Track meet today! I did well, I got a 2:19 or 2:20 in the 4x800, which my team placed first in. After that, I ran a 5:30 mile, a fifteen second personal record. Good day.

Then of course I had to be reminded that I’m a bad friend. Not so fun.

To the theatre, regarding tomorrow,

And tomorrow,

And tomorrow.

Do I want you?

Tell me.

Tell me!

Tell me what to want, and I’ll want it.

Just don’t make me choose.

I was tangled in your web, so pull me back in. Twist your ropes around my neck, bind me to you, and I’ll stay.

Just don’t make it my choice.

Don’t release me, for then I have to wonder.

Do I want you?

Do I want all that you offer?

Do I want your world?

Do I want to build a jeesh of your cast?

Should I want it?

I think I want you.

No.

No, I know I want you.

But I still wonder. Because you are the entryway to a world of glittering skies, of love and loss and terror and treachery. 

You are the gateway to the world I’ve always thought I wanted.

But there are parts I never expected. 

Parts I’m not sure if I want. 

Can’t I just have you?

Can’t I just have the beauty without the pain?

Just once?

I’m not mad at you.

I don’t blame you.

I just…I can’t stand in the entrance forever. 

So do I step forward? Or do I run away?

And why must I choose?

For today, I am with you.

For today, we can be at peace.

But tomorrow is coming.

Cages or wings…let them fly.

I want a cage. 

A cage is safety. 

A place with no choices. 

Will you be my prison, love?

Will you hold me tight and never let me go?

Will you give me walls that I can rail against without fear of what’s on the other side?

Will you clip my wings so that I don’t ever try to leave?

Will you do that for me?

I don’t know what I want. 

Just that I want you.

But…

But what?

The choices of today can’t be made tomorrow.

Tomorrow, there are more choices.

Tomorrow, I will need to become something new,

Or you will destroy me.

It hurts, love. 

And you aren’t here to take away the hurt. 

And that hurts most of all. 

Rue

 

Uhmm...

Hi people...

Yesterday I was feeling arty...

So I messed around with some fine line pen things...

On a lil envelope...

here it is

Then... I was looking through my camera roll on my phone and found some absolutely gorgeous pansies

They were practically begging to be painted with watercolor.

I'll just say this.

I'm not a painter, but I like to mess around.

 

Here's the first attempt at a pansy

 And here is the reference for that one.

 

 

And here is my second attempt 

And the reference for that one

 

 

And the THIRD AND I THINK BEST PANSY!

And the reference for this one puts it to shame, but here it is anyway

So, that's what I did...

I enjoyed it...

I'll post all this in my art thread too.

 

Love you all

~ Stick  

P.S. Let me know your favorite? 

hi everybody.

lil update...

none of the kittens survived.

i'm so sorry

i tried to save them but it wasn't enough.

we had to put them out of their misery...

it was quick and painless, i promise.

 

~ stick

Hi, y'all

I got some sad news.

As maybe a few of you know, my cat was pregnant...

She went into labor earlier today, and I helped her deliver six kittens.

Unfortunately, they are too early, and I'm not sure any of them will survive the night.

One of them was stillborn, so currently, five are living.

Mamma is doing well, thank God, but the babies are all really tiny and sickly looking.

Please pray for them.

If they live, I'll need name suggestions, and feel to reply to this with thoughts, support, name ideas, questions, or hugs.

Thank you all so much.

Love,

        Stick 

Hi, y'all

I got some sad news.

As maybe a few of you know, my cat was pregnant...

She went into labor earlier today, and I helped her deliver six kittens.

Unfortunately, they are too early, and I'm not sure any of them will survive the night.

One of them was stillborn, so currently, five are living.

Mamma is doing well, thank God, but the babies are all really tiny and sickly looking.

Please pray for them.

If they live, I'll need name suggestions, and feel to reply to this with thoughts, support, name ideas, questions, or hugs.

Thank you all so much.

Love,

        Stick 

Hi, y'all

I got some sad news.

As maybe a few of you know, my cat was pregnant...

She went into labor earlier today, and I helped her deliver six kittens.

Unfortunately, they are too early, and I'm not sure any of them will survive the night.

One of them was stillborn, so currently, five are living.

Mamma is doing well, thank God, but the babies are all really tiny and sickly looking.

Please pray for them.

If they live, I'll need name suggestions, and feel to reply to this with thoughts, support, name ideas, questions, or hugs.

Thank you all so much.

Love,

        Stick 

Hi, y'all

I got some sad news.

As maybe a few of you know, my cat was pregnant...

She went into labor earlier today, and I helped her deliver six kittens.

Unfortunately, they are too early, and I'm not sure any of them will survive the night.

One of them was stillborn, so currently, five are living.

Mamma is doing well, thank God, but the babies are all really tiny and sickly looking.

Please pray for them.

If they live, I'll need name suggestions, and feel to reply to this with thoughts, support, name ideas, questions, or hugs.

Thank you all so much.

Love,

        Stick 

Hi, y'all

I got some sad news.

As maybe a few of you know, my cat was pregnant...

She went into labor earlier today, and I helped her deliver six kittens.

Unfortunately, they are too early, and I'm not sure any of them will survive the night.

One of them was stillborn, so currently, five are living.

Mamma is doing well, thank God, but the babies are all really tiny and sickly looking.

Please pray for them.

If they live, I'll need name suggestions, and feel to reply to this with thoughts, support, name ideas, questions, or hugs.

Thank you all so much.

Love,

        Stick 

Hi, y'all

I got some sad news.

As maybe a few of you know, my cat was pregnant...

She went into labor earlier today, and I helped her deliver six kittens.

Unfortunately, they are too early, and I'm not sure any of them will survive the night.

One of them was stillborn, so currently, five are living.

Mamma is doing well, thank God, but the babies are all really tiny and sickly looking.

Please pray for them.

If they live, I'll need name suggestions, and feel to reply to this with thoughts, support, name ideas, questions, or hugs.

Thank you all so much.

Love,

        Stick 

Bad Bot!

(probably)

Three songs that make you bawl your eyes out, go:

I said go

Now.

Do it.

*screams*

I WATCHED THE VIDEO-

WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK-

AHHHH-

GO WATCH IT HERE'S THE LINK

 

*sobs*

I'll never catch up...

*screams*

I WATCHED THE VIDEO-

WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK-

AHHHH-

GO WATCH IT HERE'S THE LINK

 

*sobs*

I'll never catch up...

 6 words for today:

Henna: My beautiful way to hide.

 

I've been getting into henna again, my mom is still WAY better at it than me, but I'm learning and I'm ridiculously proud of what I did do.

Spoiler for pics  

So anyway, that was really really fun, and I'm going to get more henna and keep practicing!!

For those of you who would like to try this, I got the henna paste off of Amazon, and found a few YouTube tutorials about beginner designs and such. Pinterest also has some great stuff.

It's fairly easy, but it does take practice. I like to trace my hand on a piece of paper, then put the henna on the paper to practice before I do it on my skin. It's an amazing art form, and I'll probably do some symbols from some different books and such at some point  

 

Anyway... I have so much schoolwork to do before tomorrow... even though I just want to procrastinate and go outside cause it's freaking 66 degrees!!! (F) 

*sigh*

I hate decisions.... 

Anyway!

Love you all!

Have a good day/rest of your day!!!

My PMs are open!!!

*hugs*

~ Stick  

Oh! Hey guys!

I'm so tired I can hardly think straight, and have a bunch of homework to do before tomorrow, tomorrow's school, and then all my stuff that's due on Tuesday...

 

Here is the reason I didn't sleep, if you care to know  

But, I got to watch In The Heights with Veil and it was great!!!!

I think it should have been rated a bit more mature than PG-13, but that's my opinion.

I made a new Spotify playlist (I'm Just-A-Stick on there too ) of all my nostalgic songs that I used to listen to in 1st and 2nd grade... they've carried me through some hard times, and I hope that they can do the same for you, if you would so choose to find it. It's called "My Memories"  

 

Anywayyyy

I love you all so much!

Stay safe, stay here, reach out if you need  a n y t h i n g  at all.

My PMs are open.

~ Stick  

Ah, Utah.

That wonderful land where it can rain, snow, hail, thunderstorm, wind, and more all at once. 

And it was sunny and warm this morning.

EDIT: Oop the power just went out…

You guys know what's mildly terrifying???

The fact that you can watch the world population grow in live time online... as well as deaths...

Right at this very second, 147,000 people have died today...

147,000 families are mourning their loved ones...

147,000 people with lives, friends, families... and they show up

As nothing more than a digit on a screen...

One hundred forty-seven thousand people have died on March 1st 2024

147,000

You know what else is crazy? 

10,135,500 deaths so far this year....

10,135,500 deaths. 

That's... I just can't seem to wrap my mind around that.

And, in the time it took to write this SU, another Hundred people died.

100 more families...

100 more funerals...

10,000,000 tears...

 

I hope you can get help before you consider adding to that number in any way.

My PMs are open.

I love you all.

 

~ Stick

 

 

Are you seceretly a Herald???

 

I feel like I want to write a poem. But it's been so long and I don't remember how without making it scudding depressing. Most of my recent poems are just angsty word vomits, but i want to make something beautiful, like the poetry I used to write. Like Where the Wind Whispers or Boy With the Umbrella or... or... idk. Something light and hopeful that I didn't half-ass for school, but not something sad either. Something pastel yellow with lavender clouds and a silver breeze. I don't remember the last time I wrote something beautiful.

Wow. I think all the tragedy I write is like finally catching up to me. I'm gonna go on a poem hunt and post some of my old, pretty ones here. Then maybe I can use those as inspo. 

hmmm anyways idk what the point of this SU is but yep have these I guess