Just-A-Stick

Ah! Guys! I'm a Wit!  

YAY!   

 

Hi!

I started Warbreaker today!  

I'm excited! 

How is everyone?

I'm trying to get some poems written soon, I promise, But someone might need to stab me with a certain stick.... 

anyways...

this is short...

 

 

Hi, I wrote a poem earlier... sorry, but it's really dark... I'm better than alright now, but I had... a rough time this afternoon. I'M FINE NOW, THO <333

(I'm happy to share inspo in a PM... Take care of yourself, you wonderful people! If you need anything, please PM me  

 

Monster

 

HI LOVELY HUMANS! 

I'M BACK! I HAD FUN!

I'm at 500 rep, so that's cool  

Ummm...

HI! HAPPY NEW YEAR!  

LOVE YOU ALLLL <333333

WELL, I GUESS I WON FOR THE THIRD DAY IN A ROW??????????

hmmm

there can be but one solution.

Anyways... thanks again, I guess  

I'm sleeping over at a friends house till Monday afternoon, so I'll probably be on sometime then. 

Love you all, reach out if you ever need someone to talk to, or answer non-math questions (those mess with my silly brain, like I'm number-dyslexic or something) or give you hugs. Physical touch is my love language, so i am a big huger!  

Please take care of yourself, There seems to be a mental health crisis spreading, (from what I've seen) And there are sooo many wonderful humans on here to talk to. Some of the ones that have helped me are: 

LOVE YOU ALLLL  

Guys!

I discovered a new show that I've been watching with my mom for a few days. It's called Poldark, and I LOVE IT SO MUCH!

The main character, (played by Aiden Turner) Looks almost like Kaladin (from SA) and acts like him to!

(he's veryyyy fiiinneeee  ) 

But it's like.... super cool! Set in England during all the Hamilton stuff happening in America, it's amazing, and recommend it to anyone, but specifically @Edema Rue and @SmilingPanda19 because I feel like they would like it. (Feel free to mention anyone else who might like it, or, if you've seen it, we can have a discussion  ) 

 

spoiler: Fine man lol  

 

Held

 

I want to be held

I want to feel arms around me

I want someone to hug me 

And not let me go 

 

I want someone to touch me 

Rub my back

Play with my hair 

Lay next to me

Hold my hand

Kiss my head

Lean on my shoulder 

Lay their hands on me

 

Let me know you care

Let me know I’m worth it

Let me know I can still feel

Even through the numbness 

And pain

 

Let me see your face

Let me see you hold me

Let me see you smile

 

Please hold me

Don’t let me go

I need the attention 

I need to know you care

I need to be held

 

~Stick 12-30-23

Whole 

 

We, as people 

Are broken.

 

How does one mend

A fractured heart?

A tattered, abused spirit?

A sad, lonely existence.

 

We need something,

Someone,

To fix us,

Make us whole,

New,

Better than before.

 

He has a name, 

More wonderful than

All others.

We speak His name

Into the dark,

Into the pain,

Into the awful circumstances.

He is our peace,

Our light,

Our rescue,

Savior,

Redeemer,

Our Lord.

 

His name 

Is

Jesus

 

He is with us.

He fights for us.

He understands.

Jesus.

 

The

Only one

Who

Can

Ever

Make

Us

Whole,

Jesus.

 

~ Stick 12-29-23 

Wounds

 

Mental

Physical 

Emotional 

Verbal 

 

Wounds

Leave 

Scars

 

Scars

Are

Signs 

 

Of

What

You’ve 

Been

Through 

 

Of

Where

You’re 

Going 

 

Wounds

Bleed

And

Hurt

And

Need

Care

Always

 

Wounds 

Hurt

And 

Scar

And

Look

Ugly 

Sad

Scary

 

Trauma 

Is 

A 

Wound 

 

Depression 

Is

A 

Wound

 

Anxiety 

Is

A

Wound

 

Loneliness 

Is

A 

Wound

 

Neglect 

Is

A 

Wound

 

There

Are

Many

Many

Many

Wounds

 

Healing 

Cannot 

Always 

Happen

 

The

Wounds

Don’t 

Always 

Go

Away

 

The

Scars

Are

Here

For

Good

 

But

They

Might

Become

Less

Visible 

With

Time

 

You

Will

Be

Wounded

Again

And

Again

 

It 

Is

Unfortunately 

A

Part 

Of

Life

 

Enjoy 

Your

Wounds

And

Hurts

And 

Pain 

 

Before

The

Scars

Come

To

Consume

You

 

~Stick  12-29-23

 

WIZZPOP NEEDS HUGZZZZZ

 

Love you, Brother! 

*hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* 

*MASSIVE HUGZZZZ*

 

Spoiler: Something to laugh at <3333 

*more hugs* 

Ah!

Uhhh....

Thank you, humans, who dEfInItLy dIdN'T rep-bomb me..... 

 

I won the day.

that makes.... 3 

cool!  

@Roosif, are you happy now? It's your turn again  

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

WHOOOOOOOOOO

DARED

TAKE

ME 
AWAY 
FROM
THE 
GHOSTBLOODS!!!!!!!!

*weeps*

I will have my revenge.... 

hi!

 

GUYS!

xD

ALSO: I'M A GHOSTBLOOD NOW!!!!!!!     

Quiet

 

I sit in my corner

In the quiet.

I breathe.

I feel.

I exist.

I write.

 

My words

Flow in the silence.

The feeling is magical.

I can understand.

I simply can’t write fast enough.

My brain is a flurry of emotions and feelings.

 

I understand them.

I process them.

I know where they come from,

What they do.

I pour them out on paper,

They flood from my heart, into my pen, 

And onto the page.

Swirling, like my thoughts.

 

A cascade, impossible to dam,

Flows from my mind.

I soon must return,

To my silence,

But it will be peaceful, 

I know that I have an outlet.

 

A place where I can spew my thoughts,

Words,

Feelings.

Yes, it’s messy.

Yes, it’s not perfect-

Far from it, in fact!

But it’s mine.

I own the words

I own the quiet.

I am master here, in my safe space.

Where

All

Is

Quiet.

 

~ Stick 12-28-23

 

 

 

Words

 

Words let you express,

Feel,

Understand,

I am learning to use words

To help others

 

It is my greatest wish

That my words would help,

Someone out there,

Who feels like me.

 

I cannot promise 

That my words will work for you.

Who am I, but the author?

 

Words help me,

But they might not help you.

That’s alright.

You don’t have to be like me.

You are loved, just as you are.

 

You have other ways

To express, get relief,

Understand, feel.

But this is my way.

Through words.

 

~Stick 12-28-23 

@Edema Rue this made me think of you for some reason  

 

Breath

 

In, out,

Steady, constant,

Always there,

Until it’s not.

 

In silence,

In noise,

In crowds,

We all breathe.

 

Slowly, quietly,

Deeply, loudly,

Quickly, shallowly,

Breath always happens.

 

Keep breathing,

My friends,

In,out

Please keep breathing

 

I know

It hurts,

It’s hard,

But keep breathing

 

You’re strong,

You’re brave,

It’s possible.

Don’t be afraid.

 

Keep breathing

Good job

In, out.

Try it again.

 

In, out,

Count them,

In, out

You’ll make it

 

In, out

In, out

In, out

Are you okay?

 

Need more?

In, out

In, out

It’s getting easier

 

Every time

You’re scared

Keep breathing

Just keep breathing.

 

~Stick 12-28-23

Hi, humansssss  

I wrote this thing earlier 

Heheheheh 

 

 

 

Hi, Humans!

I'm back!

Did you miss me???

I hope you had a nice Christmas  

Oh! And I apparently won the day again?

Thank youuu <333333333333

Yes, I know I already put an SU on here today...

I just wanted to say, I'm going to the cabin for the weekend, and won't be online at all.  

Merry Christmas, I'll be back on Tuesday or Wednesday.

 <3333333333333 

"What can I do?"

"How can I help?"

"I love you."

"Are you doing alright?"

"How are you today?"

"Do you need someone to talk to?"

"We are here for you, you need only ask."

 

 

 

 

These are the things.

I keep getting asked.

By the people who care.

Who love me.

Who are there for me.

Who can help me.

If I let them.

 

I don't always have the answers.

Hell- no one does!

Me, least of all, sometimes. 

But I have people.

Who are there.

For ME!

They care about ME!

They love ME!

They want to protect ME!

And yet, I still wonder why. 

Why do I deserve this? 

 

 

Do you

Have someone?

Who cares?

About you?

Do you have someone?

Can I be your someone?

I care.

About you.

About your heart.

I can love you.

Be there for you.

Or not.

You need only.

Ask. 

 

WARNING: RANT COMING: DO NOT READ IF YOU DON'T CARE 

 

 

 

 

Guys! WHY!

What is wrong with our culture and society?

What the STORMS is so bad about asking for help when you need it?

What is wrong with being vulnerable?

Why do we judge people for being honest?

WHY! When someone asks you "How are you today" At the grocery store! You say "Fine." or "Good, how are you?" Because, the truth is, we are scared to come out of our shells for fear of being hurt again. We don't want to burden people. I say something along the lines of "I don't want to bleed my bloody emotional baggage all over you." 

Why are we raised with... this fear of opening up?

What is wrong with people?

Should I put a sticker on my forehead that says "I am in the middle of a mental health crisis right now, thanks for caring!" 

What would that do?

I would get looked at strangely, I might get laughed at. If I get laughed at, at least I made someone happy... Right?

No. Because that's not how we think. Not how we act. We are a corrupt people. 

Why don't we prioritize mental health more?

I have all my labels that I carry around, on my heart. Would it help if they were on my body, too?

 

Depressed

Anxious

Suicidal

Abused

Hurting

Lonely

Sad

Weird

Deformed

Messed up

Strange

Weak

Broken 

 

 

Would that help people? If all of those were written on stickers and stuck to my body? Or printed on my clothing?

Would it help them understand? Or, if they don't even know what I'm talking about, they say "it's not real" or "It's all in your head" or "You'll be fine." or "Stop exaggerating, you're fine!"  or, "Oh you think that's bad? Wait till you hear about this!" 

And they somehow think that's supposed to help me???

 

 

I have a lot to process right now. 

 

"What can I do?" ~ Pray, hugs, check-ins 

"How can I help?" ~ Talk to me, let me know you care

"I love you."  ~ Thank you. I know I don't always say it back, but I say "I know." 

"Are you doing alright?" ~ I'm... working on it.

"How are you today?" ~ Better than Tuesday. 

"Do you need someone to talk to?" ~ Always. 

"We are here for you, you need only ask." ~ Thank you. Asking is hard, but I do try. 

 

I- Have nothing else to say. 

I am EMPTY.

 

~ Stick 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Me: Let me get my book.

ER Nurse: No personal items, sorry.

Me: It's Mistborn!

ER Nurse: That doesn't matter. 

Me: But... It's BRANDON SANDERSON! 

ER Nurse: Who?

Me: 

 

 

 

Also, I wrote a poem.  

 

TEARS

If your eyes

Are the window to the soul,

What are tears?

 

Raindrops,

Splashing against the glass?

Rolling down the window pane.

Collecting on the ground.

 

Rain is good.

It helps things grow.

Why are tears so bad?

Because we never stop

To think about

What grows from them.

 

When the rain falls,

We can be grateful.

It is washing the world.

When the tears fall,

They cleanse us,

Give us a new perspective,

Let us see without dirty windows.

 

They bring a beautiful,

Rain washed dawn.

They are a part of life.

An essential part.

 

We express ourselves,

Through our tears.

Whether those be happy tears,

Or sad tears.

 

The emotions have to come

Out somehow,

And so, God gave us tears.

A way to cleanse the spirit,

As well as the body.

 

 

~ Stick

 

 

Guys, I have to say. 

One of my favorite songs right now is Mansion by NF...

Therapy Session is also great. 

Mansion    Therapy Session

 

 

Hello everyone.

Just a bit of an update.  

 

Look at your post count!

May the Fours be with you  

since you apparently like Star Wars so much