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Here are all the poems I wrote during my exile.
Homeless
SpoilerHomeless
I see it.Their blank, hopeless staresThe way they beg for anythingI was onceSo hopelessLife was bleak.I worked hardTo keep myself breathingI had my familyTo support me.Who do they have?No one.We turn a blind eyeOn their sufferingAnd painTheir problemsWe try not to see.But why?Are they not people too?What’s the difference?A few dollarsA roof over our headsHopeThat’s the real difference.We know whereOur next meal is coming fromThey do not.ButWe can help themFind themselvesPick themselves upGet back on their feetWe can help them to standAgain~ Stick 1-13-24Suicidal
SpoilerSuicidal
The thoughtsLurkingAlways thereReady toSnatch me awayBreak me downSteal my soulMy breathMy lifeThere is no escapeThey follow meDown theTorturedTwistedPathwaysIn my headThey hideBut alwaysResurfaceAnd try againThey always try againThis is meThis is howIt feelsTo beSuicidalI can’t controlMy thoughtsMy urgesThe thingsThat I thinkNeed to happen“Take the pills”They whisper to meI hear the voices“Find the knife”I cannot escape“The rope! Yes!Use the rope!”I am drowningI can’t escape“Drowning? Yes! D r o w n.Escape? No. Never.”If I dieWill my voicesLeave me in peace?“Peace? When have we ever had that?”I don’t know“We never had it. It’s gone, out of reach to us.”But… no. We can find peace!“THE CAR! JUMP IN FRONT!NOW!”No!“You can’t face the world!Look at you!Who wants to see that?Good… hide under the blanketsNo air.Press them against your face…Good…. Good girl…”No! I need to stay!“Stay for who? No one wants to see you. Back under the blankets. NOW!”I believe the voicesI don’t want toButI doThey are taking overMy entireLife“There is no life for you. End it now.”I am“Messed up? Unloved? Stupid? Dis-functional? Outcast? Alone? Unwanted? Better off dead.”Suicidal~ Stick 1-12-24Thoughts
SpoilerThoughts
My mindIt racesAs fastAs it canIt jumps fromTopic toTopicBut only stays one oneThe thought,Always somewhere in my head“Kill yourself, you’re better off dead.”I try not to entertain this fantasyThat I have,But it is taking over.My broken brain thinksDeep downThat everything is betterIf we die.What is there to live for?The Shadow cares about nothing.These thoughtsWill one dayBe the death of me.Welcome to the funeral.She was killedByHerOwnThoughts.~ Stick 1-17-24Love
SpoilerLove
We were created to loveAnd yet… love causes so muchPain.I almost welcome the pain.But I don’t always want the love.Love is a fickle emotion. People say I’m loved, but I can’t believe them, for I do not feel.All I can feel is my heart, breaking inside me, the pain consuming my soul.Let the pain come.The Shadow can stand it.Shut out the love.You don’t deserve it.You can survive in your ownPitifulWorldOfPain.~ Stick 1-17-24Shadow
SpoilerShadow
I am a shadowOf who I once was.A lonely, dark shadow.A shadow andA shellI can never be filedLike I used to beNever againI like being the ShadowI drift through my lifeNever caringShadows cannot be hurtFor they are nothingI am nothingAnd yetI still hurtIf I just become the shadowJust a bit moreI won’t be hurt anymoreI can sink andDrown aloneDrownAloneInMyShadow~ Stick 1-17-24Frightened
SpoilerFrightened
Every soundEvery shadowEvery yellEvery clapEvery laughEvery screamThe noiseThe whispersIn my earsTelling meTo do thingsThe shadowsThat only ICan seeThat lurk in theCornersOf my mindThe peopleWho yellWho screamWho make the noisesWho fightAnd get hurtWho sometimesBecome theShadowsI am so frightenedI cannot breatheMy panicForces the airFrom my bodyI’m shakingYet I feel like ICan’t moveI am weakI get scaredI am nothingButA small childWho isFrightened~ Stick 1-17-14Snowflake
SpoilerSnowflake
Tumbling,Twisting,Falling from the sky.The snowflakesHit the groundAnd pileInto drifts.Fleecy,Delicate,Never alone,They danceThrough the airTo their ownSong.The song of falling snow.The lonely soundOf the winterWindSighing through the treesAccompanying thesong of falling snow.The cold melodyPlays across theFrigidWinter night.The snowflakeIs but aTiny partOf theSymphony.And yet, without it,There would beNoMusic.~ Stick 1-16-24Heartbreak
SpoilerHeartbreak
I miss my friendsI’m lonelyI want to be heldI want to have my tearsWiped awayThe breaking of a heartCan happen anytimeIt can be goodOr it can be badGod can mend our heartsHe can fix our scarsHe can piece our livestogether againWe just have toFling ourselvesOur trust and entireBeingInto his strong armsOnly He can fixMy-OurHeartbreak-Stick 1-15-24Story
SpoilerStory
I wish my lifeWas a story.I could make aCharacterTo be me.I could fix her,Make her perfect,Happy, loved,Wanted.I wonder…How much would I add?What would I take away?What would she be like?Who are her friends?Who is her family?What does she like to do?Would she beHappy?Would she feel loved?Does she care about others?Does she love herself?Does sheBear the scars thatI do?Does her mind work?Is she insane to?Is she worse off than me?Does she want to die?Is she lonely?Is sheSomewhere inside me?TrappedBy the walls aroundMy heart?Is she alone?Did she everFind love?Is she watching meFail my life?From somewhere outside?Is she apart of me?Is she upset at meFor ruining our life?For making the decisions we did?For hearing the voices?The voices that haunt us?What is wrong with her?Does she feel like I do?Like a failure?Or unworthy?Can she write better than me?Does she have more friends?Does she love herself?Is she okay, wherever she is?Is she a mess?Does she hear voices?Does she talk to herself?Do people think she’s crazy?Does she think she’s crazy?I think I’m crazy.Does she try to hide?Her feelings and emotions?Her scars…All the bad things-Or, are there none in her life?Is she happy, wherever she is?Does she know thatIt’s all a story?I wishI could beHerAnd living in aStory.- Stick 1-16-24Anyways... Let me know what you think, and... yeah, I'm back, guys!
I'm watching the Greatest Showman just for fun, (its not as good as I remember)
and I'm reading a very interesting book on Endovascular Neurosurgery, so that's cool
I think what I missed most, is my friend, this guy ->
but, I CANT WAIT TO RP WITH EVERYBODY!!!
thanks for reading and caring,
Love,
Stick
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*so many hugs*
I love uuuu Stick
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*hugs*
Welcome back!
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