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Heyyyyyy 5,000 Congrats!!!
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The Bigger Person
I think it’s timeFor a change, don’t you?I’ve been taking forToo long.It’s time for me to give.Can I be the personFor youThat you wereFor me?Can I be yourShoulder to cry on?Person to talk to?A safe place?I want to care for youThe way you showed me.If that means being theBigger person,The mamma,Older?I don’t mind.On the contrary-I want that chance.To not think about myselfFor once.Because maybeI was madeTo help.If I can’t help myself,So be it.If I can help you,Hold you,Care for you,Will you giveMe that chance?I understand,Trusting is hard.It can hurt.But healing is a cost.It can be painful.But in the end, isn’t itWorth the pain?You don’t haveTo say yes.Things can stay howThey are, and maybeContinue toGet better.But, my mindset hasChanged.I’m going to tryAnd be the bigger personSometimes.Not all the time-Nobody can keep thatUp forever.They weren’t meant to.Life is a burden.There are joys inThe world,And also sorrows.Both to numerousTo count.But everyone stillNeeds that olderPersonSometimes.My life is a book.Sorrow is spread acrossParagraphs.Joy is in the margins.It’s small, yet still there.This book of my lifeIs held and balancedBy many hands.Your hands are there.My family’s.Other friends.The point is,Everyone has peopleHelping to holdTheir book.Their life.I myselfAm helping to holdMany books.The more I hold,The better I learn to holdMy own book.The bigger my impact is.I want to changeThe world.Will you let meHold a part of your book?A part of who youReally are?~ Stick 5-10-24 -
I did art today
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It's okay Why, I'll give her rep for you.
*realizes i already did yesterday*
nvm lol
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All good, thanks!
I’ll just give her some tomorrow!
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Who are we
But the nameless?
The faceless?
The lost,
Directionless,
Hopeless...
Do we know who we are?
Do we care to know
Who we are?
If we found out,
Would we be happy?
Would we just go back to
The repetitive motion
Of drawing the knives across taunt skin?
Of watching red
Drip
From flesh.
We don't know who we are.
What we're here for.
We're going through the motions.
Just you and I.
Together, and yet alone
In this big, empty world.
Someone to confide in.
Someone to hurt.
The thing we live inside,
Yet hate.
Is this who we were meant to be?
This... thing?
This bloody
Battered
Tired
Lonely
Thing?
Who are we?
What is wrong with us?
What is so undesirable about
Us?
What did we do?
Did we ever
Have a purpose?
We've done things...
Shameful things.
We don't regret them...
Necessarily...
But sometimes
We wish the outcome would have been
Different.
We wish we were different.
But...
We are different.
Unlike everyone else.
Too weird and messed up
Too dangerous
A mistake.
No like the others
At all.
So we go on.
Somehow
Just existing.
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”Nuh uh. You’re no mistake”
”Maybe you are different, but is that really a bad thing? I mean have you seen what people are like nowadays?”
Lemme make a list:
SpoilerStealing stuff from schools
Road Rage
Constantly. Storming. Swearing. Dude I know 6th graders (now 8th graders) who literally were swearing worse than drunken sailors because I suck at basketball.
A lot of other things
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HIHIHI PEOPLE!!!!
I HAD MY FIRST ART LESSON FROM RADIANT!!
I'M POSTING STUFF IN ART THREAD!!!!
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Guys! On Sunday night we stoped when we saw a sign for free kittens! Here are pics!!
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< The girl kitten! (named snowball but I would have chosen Penelope)
< The boy kitten! (named silkie but I wanted Nightblood-)
That's all!
~ Stick
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@WhyEverNot_8- Yes! We did!!
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Awesomeeee!!!
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2 things
1. The grey and white kitten isn't here anymore... she's in a better place now
2. the black kitten is actually a female
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Guys!!
I'm reading Les Misérables the Manga Classic!!
I love it so much-
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they have a Manga classics version of that?
I’ve read hamlet, and there’s a few others I want to read.
Now that’s part of it!
Thanks for informing me!
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For a second there I thought that you thought Les MIs was a classic manga story written as a manga and I was like whaaaaaaaaaa
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yeah fs
@WhyEverNot_8- yesss read it!!!
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So, yesterday at church, me and a few of my friends snuck into the bathroom to sing, like we usually do (THE ACOUSTICS ARE SO GOOD IN TILE BATHROOMS-) And I recorded it in a VoiceMemo.
Here you go!
Spoiler~ Stick
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Flat????!!!! My children?????!!!
nahhhhb
THEY SLAYING
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Dude that sounds awesome!
The dissonance is making my hair stand on end and it’s awesome!
I bet this’d sound even better with brass or string accompaniment
SpoilerThere’s literally a YouTube Channel called “Men’s Bathroom Choir” and they do a whole bunch of stuff like that.
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Hey guys!
my brother got his (brand new first car) car stolen and has started a GoFundMe for it.
here’s the link if you wanna support him in any way.
thanks!
~ Stick
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Things are complicated.
I’m lost.
what else is new.
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Lost is an interesting word, though definitely one I'm guilty of using often. I've started replacing that word with another one. "Directionless." Lost implies a path -or destination- exists. I'm not sure I feel that.
That alone is complicated.
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Directionless.
Sounds about right.
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*joins group hug*
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Oh my gosh, guys...
*inhale*
Do you ever think Spotify is spying on you?!
Well, I do.
They randomly played Tattoos by Citizen Soldier for me this afternoon.
If you haven't heard this song, it made me cry so many tears.
Go listen to it.
Before you read the rest of this.
I'm about to be a bit... vulnerable, so don't read if you don't care.
Please.
SpoilerSo, some of you might have been able to guess from my writing and some of the things I've posted here, but... I've been struggling with self-harm since September 2023. I'm not asking for pity. I don't need that. Do I know what I need? No. Have I gotten better? Not yet. We're working on it.
Now, I know for a fact that I'm not the only one on this website that struggles with this and I know sure as hell I'm not the only one in the world who struggles with this. I want you to know that you aren't alone. I'm willing to share more of my story if you PM me. Or don't. It's okay.
My scars, every single one, are apart of my story, and I'm trying not to hide anymore. It's hard. But we're still trying. That's what matters.
~Stick
5-4-24
Love you guys.
~ Stick
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*hugs*
’S not pity, at least not from me. It’s more of a extreme desire not to let someone else I know cause themselves harm.
We love you too Stick
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Thanks for following me!
(it's SO cool that you're from Australia!! ...Do you have an accent??)
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I am unaware of other accents really so I dont know. Probably though
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*inhale*
Hi people!
I'm having some... anxiety issues, shall we say?
Here's why.
SpoilerSo, camping.
tent,
don't like tent,
away from home in don't like tent,
not allowed to have phone so no help if I need it in don't like tent,
with people who don't accept me and who I've only know for a few months with no phone in don't like tent,
has to dress up like an 18th century woman in 80 degree weather with people and no phone in don't like tent,
has to stay for three days in hot clothing and hot weather with people and no phone in don't like tent.
So... I'm not going to be online until Saturday night ish EST.
Uhh...
if I'm on before that, my anxiety made me physically sick and it was bad enough that I had to come home early.
Love you guys...
~ Stick
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I really really hate sunburn.
and stress.
and anxiety, now that you mention it…
and horse slobber on my watch.
Cinder decided that it was his yummy snack this evening, and tried to eat it.
nahh, fr tho, riding was good.
ima be mad sore tomorrow, but it was worth it
~ Stick
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ITS SO CUTE I’LL GET YOU A PICTURE SOMETIME
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YESSSSS
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Gorse!
Sunburns and soreness suck, but Stress and Anxiety are worse.
PMs open, let me know if you need anything.
*brotherly hugs*
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Weeelll howdy!
I'm going riding tonight!!!
I'm really excited it's been so long-
Stress is not fun.
Love y'all
~ Stick
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thanks for following me!
(apologies in advance for all the notifications you'll get from all my status updates I'll post)
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Okay, as promised!
SEAL:
SpoilerFood:
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Arts!!!!
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There you go!!
(for context read previous SU)
~ Stick
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It's the Thay-wren!
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ooOOOOo do a mandarin duck!!
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@Edema Rue- we'll see
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Helllloooo hoomanssss!!
This is a happy/excited/tired yet energetic SU!
I got amazing food on the way home from the beach and I took a picture
Unfortunately, the picture isn't picturing, so I'll post it tomorrow!
We saw a seal at the beach today!!!
A SEAL!
IN DELAWARE!!!!
I got a video and I'll post it tomorrow.
I also wrote a poem about the child I was with and it'll be in my writing thread (linked in about me)
Love you guys!!!
Thanks for being so awesome!
~ Stick
P.S. THE ARTWORK WORKED AND I'LL ALSO POST TOMORROW!!!!
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A seal!
thats epic
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Yes!
*chopstick noises*
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Happy days!
Seals are awesome.
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Yes, yes yes
I know!
another SU!
BUT!
I'm being a child at 11:00 my time
Chillin' on my bed at the rental house in my pajamas and watching Soul Surfer.
Snuggled in my blanket.
Does it get more iconic than that?
The answer is yes.
It does when Veil is here.
But she's not, so I'm being iconic all by myself.
~ Stick
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The ducks are no longer ducking.
But!
We has pictures!
#1: The art
SetUp
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#2: What happens when an actual artist gets ahold of your watercolor notebook ;-;
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#3: THE WREN IS LITERALLY THAYLEN-
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~ Stick
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It's a Thay-wren, if you will.
SpoilerI'll see myself out.
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HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHHA
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No, no. @The Bookwyrm, that was actually a great joke!
SpoilerThay-wren
I’m still giggling like a small child lol
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GUYS!!!
THE DUCKS ARE
DUCKING!!!!
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mmmmaybe
AGAIN IM SO SORRY STICKY WE'LL SHUT UP NOW
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*SIGH*
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*quack*
Ducks are awesome
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Guys!
I went to dinner
and wrote a poem
SpoilerMental Picture
I’m imaginingSomewhere quiet,Peaceful.I’m whisking myself away ,Creating a mental picture.I can go anywhere,For imagination hasNo limits.I’m ignoring theNoises.The hustle andBustle ofA crowedRestaurant.I’m ignoringThe dizzinessIgnoring the headache.Trying notTo focus onThe bangingClangingVoicesCan’t breathe-Heart racingMind numbingTunnel visionBlinking backThe black spotsPeople behind meReaching forKnivesKill my familyCan’t breathe-SwirlingAlways swirlingNot hungryHave to escapeRunHideDisappearFeel hot and coldFlushedDizzyGood thingI’m sittingDownOr i mightPass outWatchBuzzesHeart rateTo fastCan’t slow downRacingMy mindHave toPayAttention toThe childrenNeed meCan’t not be okayFor themCalling my nameSnap outPlay their gamesSit on shakingHandsMental pictureDissipatesFadingPopping intoDark swirlingMist.No escapeNot yetChest feelsTightLegs shakeCan’t breatheTrying not toHyperventilateHotHot hot hotTake a sip ofWaterThe burns myTongue withColdBut does nothingTo rid of theInternal heatAnd pressureCan’t findMy mental picture.It’s gone.~ Stick 4-26-24this is how I write when I'm literally dying.
my heart great was 106 bpm the ENTIRE time T-T
I love restaurants guys-
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Maybe, I don’t know what I would write it about though...
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PM me if you need help
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Will do!
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Thanks for following me!
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No problem! But I disrupted your perfect 50, so I guess you need to find 9 more followers now.
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