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Hi guys!!!
I'm here!
For like an hour!
And I dunno what to do!!!
WHAT SHOULD I DO?!?!
ALSO IF ANYONE WANTS TO CHAT OR ANYTHING PLS PM ME I'M SO BORED
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SpoilerIdentity
ÂâYouâd be nothing without her, you know?âÂYeah, I knowâŠÂâYouâre lucky sheâs your friend, or youâd still have no style.âÂYeah⊠very luckyâŠÂâYouâre just trying to be like her.âÂI knowâŠÂÂâYouâre such a good writer!Youâre so pretty!Youâre so kind!So gentle!Youâre a good person.âÂIs that really who I am?Or am I just the oneWho stumbles along,Stealing pieces ofOther people andCalling them mine.ÂI pretend I know how to actPretend I have a stylePretend I actually know whatIâm doingÂPretend I understand your jokesBecause ignorance might makeMe stupidÂI have no identity other thanThis maskÂMy ever-shifting,Reflecting maskTurning tightly to keepThe wounds insideAnd invisibleÂBut underneath,Inside,Thereâs just a lonelyShadowAn emptinessA ghost,Watching the outside world,Trying to be normalTrying to fit in,Yet slowly realizing,She never actually hasAnywhere.ÂSheâs scared to adopt any identity,Even the things she tells herself.Because, if her entire identityIs Worthless,Is there any hope at all?ÂDoes she have an identityAway from her insecurities?ÂWho is she, if not Broken?If not Lost?If not Hurting?Scarred?Ugly?Fearful?A Liar?Stupid,Not good enough,Fat,A burden,Messed up,Abandoned,Selfish,A mistake,A shadow?ÂNot fully dead,But not alive,Either.ÂHalfway here,Halfway gone.ÂA failure.A stranger.Different,Strange,Weird,CreepyâŠÂOne who doesnât fully belongAnywhere,So why is she still here?ÂOne who selfishlyNeeds to be needed,Who wishes that someoneExpressed their love for herThe way she does for others,Whoâs clingy and scared,But supposed to be strong,Whoâs covered in wounds,Some visible, some not,She loses herself in stories,Because maybe there,She can find herself.She wonât be suchA burden,Such a mistake,So needy,Helpless.ÂEven if she only findsA few fragments,Itâs maybe better thanNothing.Because she,Is nothing.ÂÂ~ Stick 6-18-24Â
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@Through The Living Glass- I do know, and it's very much appreciatedÂ
@Just a Silvereye- Thank you so much! (did you actually cry? :o.
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I was close to.
And that's a lot, because for some reason, I never cry over media ever.
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Aww <33
*big hugs*
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"Oh, Bookwyrm, do you need a-" *pulls severed arm out of closet* "-hand?"
*maniacal laughter*
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@Edema Rue like... 5... 4 human, 1 elven, and preferably still breathing?
@Kajsa I don't think so, but maybe tomorrow.... (i already drank enough blood for today )
@The cheeseman not necessarily, but it's preferredÂ
@Through The Living Glass- Hands are preferred, but I know @shortcake has been... collecting those all dayÂ
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@The Bookwyrm- There is no help for you here... unless you're good at body disposalÂ
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I still need mine!
Ask me again in like 80 years.
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*cries*
I hate it when other people are right!
Look!
SHE WAS RIGHT
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Stick is taller then me!!
HUZZah
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yay!!!!
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I wish I could post something good for Father's Day, but this is all I have.
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Dad...
SpoilerDadâŠ
ÂI donât know who you are.I donât know if I ever did.We have wounds that maybeYou donât know about.But I do.I see them.I feel them.Iâm still here.ÂI donât understand you.I donât begin to understand.You donât know what you did,Do you?I tried to tell you, but youProbably donât remember thatEither.ÂWhen will you learnThat I am notWho my brother is?That I actually hearWhat youâre yelling.I donât need your heavy hand.I wish I could talk to you.But I canât.ÂIâve had enough of yourFake apologies.Enough of your âserious talksâ.More than enough comparisons.ÂI donât know you!Youâre leaving.Again.What is this?I know itâs not my fault.I know itâs yours.But why couldnât youJustDoBetter?ÂMaybe mom forgave you,But I donât know if I can.ÂYou left so many times.You werenât there for meWhen I was little.Maybe, what you donât realize,Is that I saw things.I heard things.ÂMaybe you thought you hid that,But I saw it.You abandoned me.You should know that you canâtRely on Ty to be the bigger person!So where does that leave us?!When Mom is sobbingWhere she thinks nobody sees,When Ty is in a yelling matchWith you,When the younger onesAre crying because theyâre scared,I am the one.ÂIâm the one who has to beBrave.The comforter.âEverything is going to be okay.âJust repeating,Over and over as it happensAgain and again.ÂWhere were you?!ÂYou didnât just hurt Mom.You hurt me.You hurt Ty.You hurt the younger ones.ÂIâm done with those emptyApologies.Done with those stupidWords you toss aroundLike garbage.ÂI donât need your compliments.I donât need you to try andMicromanage my life.You donât know anything about me!You try to help and you wipe outMy only confidence.ÂI have other fathers.I donât trust you.I donât believe your words.Good, or bad.ÂYouâre a ghost to me.Someone who flickersIn and out,Twisting thoughts and words,Until everything is a mess.ÂDadâŠI donât know you.Youâre a stranger.One whoâs leaving.ÂAnd all I have to say, isGoodbye.Â~ Stick 6-15-24Â