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Miracle
SpoilerMiracle
I awoke and saw a bright,Yellow flower, sitting aloneOn my dresser.It was, and is, such a simple thing…A yellow flower. A spark in the darkness.A flame, ready to grow.But I saw it as so much more.I saw it as a promise. A miracle.This long, dark, depressing winterCan only last so long before SpringMakes her appearance.It was a symbol of hope, of light, of an endingTo the dark.Spring.My heart laughs with joyAt the thought.Warmth, sunshine, new life.So different from the cold, hard,Angry form of Winter, who has triedSo many times to trap me in his cold,Sad, scary, embrace.But I will soon escape.The darkness, the cold, the fear,The depression, the anger, the emptiness,The loneliness, the sadness, the tears…They all make up the winter,The winter that I will soon escape from.With the helpOf my tinyMiracle.My little flower…I think of her as my friend now,One who is helping toSee me through the dark days,One who is promising light,And with the light, comes life,Comes new ideas,New hope, new purpose, new plans,What started this?A tiny, yellow flower…One who has become my friend,One who, at her passing,Will shrivel, and die.But my hope does not die with her.Nay, it springs afresh with each of her siblings.A fresh miracle, one for me to enjoy,Until hope comes toThe outside world.Until the Miracle of SpringIs upon us.~ Stick 2-22-24Stars
SpoilerStars
The tears slideDown my faceThey sting my eyesMake them redThey leave trailsOf dark andSilverDown to my chinWhere they dripOnto my blanketLeaving little wetGrayPuddlesI sit hereAnd let themFallAnd dripAnd travel towardsThe other puddlesWhere they joinTogetherAnd makeBigger spotsOn my lapOn my blanketI don’t evenBother to wipe themAwayThere is no pointThey will be followedBy othersI sit here andCryBreath catchingIn my throatAnd hitchingIn my lungsI have so muchTo mournAnd so many tearsStored upThey won’t comeAll at onceBut over the course ofOf however longIt takesTo get reliefFrom thisWell ofPressure deepDown insideThey slideAnd leakAnd pourFrom my heartThey hurtBut pain bringsHealingOnce I haveCried all ofToday’s tearsI gentlyRemove theStreaks downMy faceLeft by the tearsI wash it all awayWarm waterSoft ragQuiet lightsPeaceful musicCrumpled tissuesThe snifflesSubsideAnd disappearBut my eyesAre still redThey still stingStill mirrorThe hurt insideThat won’t comeOut todayI just have toWait for themAnd hopeThat it’s aGood timeTo let the tearsGo freelyDown my faceAnd start everythingAll over againI don’t knowHow to processThe emotionsAnd the tearsDon’t always comeThey don’t alwaysMake me feelBetterThey don’t alwaysCleanse meBut I stillTry to cryI make myselfCryIt hurtsBut sometimesI needThe painThe pain thatWill maybeBring healingSomedayThe tears are myStarsGlowing softlyIn the darkShiningAndTravelingDown myFace~ Stick 2-25-24I Wish
SpoilerI Wish
I wish I was as strong as DalinarI wish I was as brave as KaladinI wish I was as smart as NavaniI wish I was as pretty as ShallanI wish I was as in love as AdolinI wish I was as mature as JasnahI wish I was as likable as LopenI wish I was as kind as HesinaI wish I was as awesome as LiftI wish I was as funny as RockI wish I was as loyal as TeftI wish I was as confident as VeilI wish I was as bubbly as SylI wish I was as happy as GawxI wish I was as gentle as LirinI wish I had as much purpose as VenliI just wish… I was different.~ Stick 2-28-24There you go
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Stick, you’re gonna make me cry in the middle of my storming creative writing class, these are so rusting good. (Also what a strange coincidence, because in CW we’re doing Poetry…)
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*returns hug*
You’re fine
And thanks for sharing them!
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GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FINISHED WARBREAKER!!!
AHHHHH IT'S SO GOOD!
I JUST WANT TO READ IT AGAIN!!!
T-T
I LOVED ALLL THE CHARACTERS SO MUCH!!!
HEHEHE
THE ENDING!!!
I WANT MOREEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Also, I'm about to dump my poetry
LOVE YOU ALLLL!!!
~ Stick
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HEYYYY
I'm back!
Hi!
I MISSED YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! T-T
AND AKDKHFAKHFLKAE!!!!!!!!!!
I'M READING WARBREAKER!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE IT SOOO SOOO SOOO MUCHHH!!!
AND I'M A LIL HYPER IF YOU COULN'T TELL!
*inhale*
Okay, that's better!
I'll prolly poetry dump tomorrow, and I might have to kill some RP characters... I don't think I can keep up with all of everything anymore...
Anyway! Mental health isn't good really... umm... had a panic attack earlier cause of a dumb hallucination that someone pulled a gun on me... it was extremely scary and now I'm afraid to go outside...
ummmmmmmm.....
I have fish in my fish tank now! Added them today they are adorable and I'll prolly show a pic sometime
I really hate math... BUT THE CIVIL WAR! OMG I'M SUCH A NERRDDDD!!!!
Heh... I'm kinda everywhere right now, so that's um...
I can sing a song REALLY well and I'm so proud of myself!! I can match the guys voice p e r f e c t l y!!!
SpoilerWhich is weird, but... ehhh whatever
23 by Chayce Beckham!!!!!
I love ittttt :3
UmmMMMm
I think I was gonna say something else, but I can't rememberrrrr
OH OHOHOHOH
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALLYYYY!!!!
AND WHOEVER ELSE I MISSED
That's all for now
Love y'all,
You're all special, don't forget that
~ Stick
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WELCOME SCUDDING BACK!!!!!!!! :DDDD
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Welcome back!
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I missed this and feel bad, but Welcome Back!
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Hi guys!
Life suck and my parents are banning me from all Shard things for 1 week.
After that 1 week, I will have 1 hour to be online every day for "the foreseeable future"
I'm sorry about all this, and might potentially be dropping out of some RPs.
The first being The Hunger Games, cause I won't be here.
@The Wandering Wizard has my email, so if you want that, ask him and he'll text me and I'll approve it.
I love you all very much, and am crying my farewell.
I have 11 minutes now to say goodbye.
~ Stick
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It has been honor
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Noooo!!!!
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Fare thee well, Friend. See ya in a week
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You need to hear this.
Whoever the storms you are, regardless of your race, gender, pronouns, religion, political standing, or any of the other ways we choose to divide ourselves. You, yes, you need to hear this.
Life is hard. Living hurts. I'm hurting too. We all are, in our own ways... I'm getting stronger. Read that again. Say it out loud. I'm getting stronger. It hurts now, it's hell now, I don't want to go on... But I'm standing here, choosing to go on. I am strong enough. I'm good enough. I can feel my feelings. I can let the tears fall. I can not be okay.
It will be okay, eventually... It might not be today, true... It might not be tomorrow, next week, a month from now... It might take years. I'm sorry for the wait. I'm sorry that healing hurts. I'm sorry that it's like this... You don't deserve this pain. It's not your fault.... I want to hug you, to hold you and tell you it's going to be okay. I need you to trust me on this. It will get better. Just keep breathing.
I have panic attacks, where it feels like my lungs are single-handedly trying to kill me. Like I'm being constricted. I can't breathe, so I panic more. My mind races. I can't think straight. I had a fairly intense one the other day. I thought I was dying I couldn't see the other side of the attack... My closest friend laid beside me, as the tears were almost coming, as my chest was heaving. She just held my hand. When I was at my weakest, when I thought I was a goner. She held me tightly. She told me to breathe. She didn't try to convince me of anything. All she said was "Please, breathe for me. It's okay... it's going to be okay... it's going to get better..." Over and over, her voice and her touch the only thing I could focus on. She just held me, told me over and over, softly in my ear, "I love you, It's okay... it won't last forever... just breathe..." She breathed with me, showing me how. Her grip on my hand never faltered, not for a second.
Where am I going with this? Well, I know that not all of you have someone like that. I'm sure a lot of you could use someone like that. When that happens. Breathe for me? If no one else would care if you stopped, I care. Breathe for me. PM me, ask for my email, breathe for me. If you stop, you'll never get to see everything get better. You'll never get to find that thing you're searching for, you'll never get to see the life that was designed for you by a loving hand. You have dreams, I know you do. You really want to leave those behind? Just... give up on those plans you made? I don't think you do...
Guys, life is scary sometimes. This coming from the girl who just spent the night in the emergency room because of another suicide attempt. I was scared. I am scared. But, I'm also taking steps toward healing. Yes, they are hard! Yes, they hurt! But, that is healing. That is falling and getting back up. That is stumbling along your path in life. Please, I cannot stress to you enough how important it is for you to talk to someone- anyone- about what you are feeling. I'm here, if you have no one else. I'll be your friend. I'll hold you, as best as I can.
Broken. What a hopeless word. I know some of you- who I won't mention- think you are to broken to find help. This is a lie. This isn't true. I don't know what your situation is, but you aren't hopeless. Say that out loud. I'm not hopeless. I'm not beyond help. See? It's true. I am here. I can be a lil chaotic at times- you guys know this. But I'm here, all the same. Let me- or someone else- hold you. You don't have to carry it alone anymore. This is not your burden. It's NOT. Okay? I want you to believe that.
If you aren't religious, aren't a Christian like I am, then you may ignore this part.
Guys, Jesus... he died so that he could carry all this for you. All this died on the cross, only it didn't rise again. You don't struggle alone. Please, the strongest lie you can tell yourself is that you're alone.
Say that for me. I am not alone. People care about you. I care about you. Please, just take that next breath. Take that next step and tell someone. Tell me, talk to someone you trust, write it down, process the feelings, but don't plan anything. Think, but don't dwell. I love you, whoever you are. I'm right here. I'm hanging on. It will be worth it, when I turn around and look at the journey. I'm getting stronger. Like a friend said to me.
"God doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called."
You are getting stronger. I believe you can do this. I love you. I care. I'm here. Take a breath.
~Stick 2-20-24
SpoilerWell, that happened... uhhh... happy longest SU ever to me?
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AH STICK
*hugs*
IM SO PROUD OF YOULOVE U BB
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Thank you. So many people need to hear that, myself included. And, to echo this, for everyone out there who is hurting: I know there are some moments, days, weeks, even months when the pain feels infinite, when the pain feels eternal. I don't know how or when, but it will get better. You will be warm again. And you are not alone.
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Oh! Hi guys!
I'm back!
I was at a sleepover with some friends who COULD NOT stop talking about Harry Potter (which I have not read) For more that 25 minutes at a time XD
SpoilerFor the record, I really don't think Draco is that good looking, okay!?!?
HE LOOKS LIKE A FREAKING CORPSE!!
XDD
In other news, I had a lil panic attack last night which wasn't fun, but I'm better now.
I STARTED HUNGER GAMES FINALLY!!!
I'M LOVING IT SO FAR!!
I'm on page 162, and want to be done by this time tomorrow
I hope Y'all have a great rest of your day!
Love Y'all
~ Stick
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Hi!
I got some significant work done on the fish tank today!
Unfortunately, life decided to kick my freakin butt and now, my wrist is like this:
SpoilerWhich makes me mad, as well as in pain
I HAD THINGS TO DO, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
*GrOwL*
I'll be fine tho
annnyyywayyyy
Love Y'all!
Hope your having a good day!
<33
~ Stick
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*sob*
GUYS IM SO DUMB!!!
I STARTED ANOTHER BOOK TODAY!
AND IT'S AMAZING AND I RECOMMEND TO ANYONE
BUT I'M ALREADY READING SO MANY!!!
T-T
HELP ME!!!
But THIS BOOK!
AH!
It's called "Wolf by Wolf" written by Ryan Graudin...
Ahhhh guys it's SO FREAKING GOOD AND I'M ONLY 6 CHAPTERS IN!!!
Here's what it says on the back
SpoilerHER STORY BEGINS ON A TRAIN.
The year is 1956, and the Axis powers of the Third Reich and Imperial Japan rule.
To commemorate their Great Victory, they host the Axis Tour: an annual motorcycle race across their conjoined continents. The prize? An audience with the highly reclusive Adolf Hitler at the Victor's Ball in Tokyo.
Yael, a former death camp prisoner, has witnessed too much suffering, and the five wolves tattooed on her arm always remind her of the loved ones she lost. The resistance has given Yael one goal: Win the race and kill Hitler. With the power to skinshift, Yael must complete her mission by impersonating last year's only female racer, Adele Wolfe. But as Yael grows closer to the other competitors, can she be as ruthless as she needs to be to avoid discovery and stay true to her mission?
IT'S SO GOOD!!!
This has been:
Geek Out Over Books Session With Stick
Have a wonderful day, and don't die!
Love Y'all!
<33
~ Stick
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GUYS!
I HAVE NO IDEA
HOW THIS IS RELAVANT
TO ANYTHING
BUT
WINFIELD SCOTT
WENT TO
AARON BURR'S TRIAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THIS MATTERS AT ALL
BUT MY BRAIN IS GOING A LIL
HAYWIRE NOT GONNA LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*CACKLE*
I HAVE A BREADSTICKKKK!!!!
AHHAHAHAHA
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"Sometimes you need the rain, to know you miss the sun,
Sometimes you need the pain, to know it isn't love,
Sometimes the one you hold, you gotta let 'em go,
You gotta let 'em gooo...."
~ LET EM GO by Matt Hansen
If you ever need a song about getting rid of a toxic relationship, here you go.
To bad it's impossible for me..
And, we love two hour delays! (this isn't sarcastic)
BUT! (this is sarcastic) DON'T WE LOVE IT WHEN WE WAKE UP PANICKING AT 6 FREAKING 30 BC WE THINK WE HAVE TO LEAVE IN 10 MINUTES!?!?!?
*CUE PANICKED RUNNING*
ONLY TO FIND OUT AFTER GOING DOWNSTAIRS, THAT I HAVE 2 STORMING HOURS TO DO AWAY WITH FIRST???? 2 HOURS WHEN I COULD HAVE BEEN SLEEEEPING!
*ScReAmS oF rAgE*
But, at least I get sNoW!
*exasperated flop*
so, that's where I am...
Love Y'all
~ Stick
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*hugs hugs hugs*
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You know... I just got something very interesting said to me.
My little sister said.
"You know, (my name) I wish I could be like you... you always know how to disappear... You leave a room and no one notices... I try to do that and I get called back right away... but with you, no one ever notices that your gone. It's like you weren't there in the first place. I wish I could do that."
I... I guess that's me... the person who goes unnoticed... the one who no one would notice if I was just... gone. I'm not exactly sure how to process everything... I don't know if I can...
I could use some hugs.
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*hugs hugs hugs*
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Just wanted to share a little story.
In early 2023, I spent 3 months in a school in a foreign country with a bunch of students from my school. By then due to all my problems I was going back home as soon as I could and barely socialized with others. I kinda felt like a ghost in the room - do people know I exist? How could they care about me?
Well, 2-ish months ago, I was in the school restaurant when someone calls me " Hey Silvereye! How is it going?" He was one of the other students from my class back then. He had recognized me 8 months later in a different environment, and cared enough to ask me how I was doing. I wouldnt have recognized him ever, but he did.
The talk was pretty quick (didn't feel like dumping all my problems on him lol) but it still left me with a weird fuzzy feeling.
People care. Even if it looks like no one does, people care about you and know you. They would notice if you were just gone.
*hugs* Love you
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*exasperated sigh*
Why do I do this to myself???
I know that when I get halfway through the song, I'll start crying!
And yet... I play it, then wonder why the heck I'm crying!!!
Then, I get frustrated at myself, because I hate crying cause it's so messy and makes me feel stupid.
Which makes me cry....
*huffy breath*
I hate being pissed/sad/depressed at the world for NO STORMING REASON!!!
*GROWL*
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YAY!
My assignment is done! Until I have to turn it in and realize that I fricked it up...
I'll just put it here bc... uhhhh... I don't have a reason sue me (but don't cause I have no moneeeyyy) :((
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The C.S.S Hunley was successful in that it sank the U.S.S Housatonic
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21 crewmen died over the course of Hunley’s short career.
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She operated by pure man power and raw muscle.
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Her propeller was turned by a central crank shaft and handles where the crew would sit.
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She sank three times in all and the first two times, she was merely hauled back to the surface and tried again.
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The Hunley was 40 feet in length and very tightly cramped
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It is suspected that the crew (on their mission) died by carbon dioxide poisoning, or a possible leak that sank it immediately as they tried to submerge.
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Commander General P.T.G. was in charge of the mission to sink the Housatonic.
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She was privately built in 1863 by Park and Lyons in Mobile, Alabama.
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She was funded by Horace Lawson Hunley, who she was named after.
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Horace Lawson Hunley then died in the second sinking of the Hunley.
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On May 3rd 1995 they located the Hunley in 27 feet of water off the coast of Charleston.
This was fun to research ngl
BEWARE THE FLOATING DEATH TRAPPPP!!!
AHAHAHAHA
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Ahhh... yes... school sucks, but
TACO SALAD IS DELICIOUS!!!
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DEF WITH AVOCADO
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YESS!!!!
YES!
AHAHHHHA
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Avocado, Korean beef, rice and the greatest sauce ever all combined makes something so good that I almost die every time I have it.
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*sigh*
I hate it when I suddenly have loneliness crash over me like a wave...
I miss my IRL friends...
The wonderful people who can hug me for real...
I love them all... I miss them all... But they aren't here...
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I'm mostly sane, ok? I promise!
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...yes idk where it came from Bookwyrm xD
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HE'S SO CUTE AWH I WANNA PET HIM
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*inhale*
Hello!
I'm sorry about yesterday, I was/am a mess, but it's cool...
Umm... I'm better, at least a little...
I still DON'T DESERVE THE DAY WINS!!!! xD
But thank you anyway
*hugs everyone*
Thank you all for the hugs and support....
They really mean a lot...
*more hugs cause hugs*
Love you all!
~ Stick
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Hello...
SpoilerI'm tired, but I can't sleep
I'm hungry, but I don't feel like eating
I'm numb but also sad
I'm depressed.
I can't move.
I can't find my purpose.
I feel like crying
but the tears
won't
come.I'm so lonely...
I'm still broken...
I told everyone that I'm fine... That I was over it...
But how do you get over a heartbreak
In 2 weeks...
I'm a good actor...
I don't show it.
I don't show anything.
People think I'm fine,
Because I can't not be.
But I'm thinking...
My mind races...
I can't stop it
I'm just getting pummeled with all these ideas.
None of them are good,
but all sound so wonderful...I got help
I'm getting help
it's just not working
I feel like I'm beyond
healing and wholeness, happiness
and yet... I'm still breathing
I just don't want to be...I just want to give up
On my life, my plans
On my dreams...
Nothing is working...
I hate everything
I can't be saved
I just want to hide somewhere
And cry till I fall asleep
I want my friends to hold me
I need someone...
I just can't find anyone
So I'm just here
I'm just hurting
No music, no words can take away
All this pain.
I want it all to go away...
I don't know what will happen...
Tonight,
Tomorrow... the day after...
I can't promise anything, and
I'm sorry for that.I'm a grenade, waiting to go off
And when I do, I'll hurt everyone around me.
I'm sorry in advance.
Most of you
Don't know me,
But some of you do.
Please,
Watch out for the shrapnel...
When it comes,
It'll be sharp.
I'm sorry for those of you who get cut.
Loving hurts
Breathing hurts
I don't know anything
But this pain.
In case...
In case I leave...
In case something happens...
I'll miss you all.
I love you all...
I'm sorry...But
Who knows what comes in the morning....
~ Stick 2-10-24
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Songs that keep making me cry:
Hold On by Chord Overstreet
Chasing Shadows by Alex Warren
Locksmith by Sadie Jean
If You Love Her by Forest Blakk
Fine by Kyle Hume
Let Me Down Slowly by Alec Benjamin
Broken by Isak Danielson
They are all amazing and I love them!
Also, thanks for the day win yesterday! I have officially given up protesting because it doesn't do anything
AND!
WHO WANTS
TO BE
MEMED!!!!
That's all for now!
~ Stick
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Can I be memed??
also I love Hold On (literally sobbed the first few times I heard it) and Alec Benjamin is amazing.
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KYLE HUME SPOTTED
KYLE HUE KYLE HUME KYLE HUME
sorry, i just really like that song, it's one of my favorites
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Alec Benjamin is also amaing
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Looks like Buddy the Elf visited your kitchen.
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*shudders*
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I'm horrified-