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Well...
I guess when you start letting the words out, they won't stop for a while...
I had a bit of a poetry night with @Just-A-Stick; Love you, mushroom girl
Safe
SpoilerSafe
Home
Blankets
Friends
Jesus
Safe
You won’t be ,
You think.
You can’t be.
You’re wrong.
You will be
It might be gradual
Slow
You might not notice a change at first
You might be driving home
You might realize your sweatshirt sleeve isn’t as chewed as normal
You might go to church
You might find out that worship doesn’t hurt as much as it used to
Safe
I can’t make you safe
I wish I could
But you and both know
There’s only one person who can do that
You know who
Safe
I wish I could help
Wrap you up in me and a blanket
Hold you
Tight
So you would feel
Safe
I can, one day
Not too far away
It won’t be just me either
It’ll be Love
It’ll be joy
Jesus
Safe
With you
With me
With him
Safe
Eternally.
It will be
SpoilerHard
Scary
Awful
Terrifying
It will be
Empty
Numb
Cracked
Painful
It will be
Fear inducing
Destructive seeming
Easy to break
It will be
That’s healing
That’s what he wants
It’s what I want
Fire
Hammers
Sifting
Burning
It will be
Tempering
Cooling
Refining
It will be
That’s what you are
That’s what you’ve become
It’s not easy
If it was, it would destroy the purpose
It’s not fun
If it was, it’d be pointless
It’s
What
Needs
To
Happen
And eventually
Held
Safe
Laughing
Crying
Emotions
Fleeting
Hold on
You can do it
You’re strong
Unbreakable
Daughter of Christ
Free
Strong
Been there
Done that
Fearless
Beautiful
Clean
You’ve done that too
You will be
You are
Perfectly
Imperfect
The way
God
Designed
You
Loved
SpoilerMaybe
Hard to believe
Sometimes
Hard to breathe
Always
Have to think
To find the words
Loved
Found it.
Breaths
SpoilerYou can do it
1
2
3
Count
The breaths
They help
They heal
They’re hard
It’s hard
To find breath
Sometimes
I can see
I’m trying to understand
1
2
3
I know
The world is ending
The pain
Has faded to numbness
A weight
On your heart
Breathing is adding to it
It’s annoying
Cumbersome
You wonder
Would it really be so bad
To just
Stop
I
Don’t
Know
Don’t think about it
Don’t
Give it
That kind of
Power
Mechanical
It can’t be that complicated
Maybe it is
But you
Can
Do
It
Please
Keep
Breathing
If I could
SpoilerThe things
I’d do
For you
If I could
Take your pain
Your fear
Put it on me
Instead of you
Your situation
Your circumstances
Your life
If I could
I would change it
You know this, right?
I would trade
My life
For yours
If
I
Only
Could
Wait.
Someone…
He already did that
…didn’t he?
Took the pain
The fear
The life
Died
For you
So
You
Could
Live
Not just you, either
Me
My family
Yours
“And what a sorry
Miserable
Waste
My life is
In light of what he did”
THAT
My friend
Is called
A lie
A voice
A whisper
A tremble
Worms it’s way in
Takes over the thoughts
Controls the mind
Don’t listen.
I would take
Those bullets for you
Hear those voices
If
I
Could
But
I
Don’t
Need
To
He
Already
Did.
Trust
SpoilerIt’s time
Don’t you think so?
Time to just
Wait
Open your arms
Let down your guards
Take off the mask
That covers your pain
Your feelings
Your fear
Your numbness
Give it up
Trust
What a funny word
A strange concept
After all that’s been done
Why would you want to trust?
How could anything
Ever
Be ok again?
I have to.
I have to keep going
My responsibilities…
The people I call friends…
They tell me they would crack without me
So I must
Keep going
No
Let
Go
Trust
Not in me
In Him
Yes, it’s hard
Painful
But
Try
That’s
All
We
Can really
Do
Wait
Through
The numbness
Wait
Trust
Life
SpoilerBroken
Shattered
Unfixable
Unwanted
Hopeless
These are the words
We tell ourselves
Day after day
Speaking into ourselves
Lies
But they’re real
To us
In those moments
We’re wounded
Raw scrapes
Cuts
Slashes
Tearing into our souls
Ripping apart the fragile walls we’ve built
Fake smiles
Everything’s fine
Normal
But then we’re crying on the floor of our rooms
Because it’s not fine
It might be normal at this point
But it’s not fine
These wounds
Go deeper
They don’t heal
They become scars
But they don’t heal
They break us from the inside
People say
Scars are a testament
To strength
But hearts can break
And we can pretend
They’re healed
That they don’t need attention
We can ignore them
Don’t face them
Curled up in winter
The tears are gone now
We’re too exhausted to cry
Because we stopped feeling a long time ago
We’re numb
It’s better like that
We can’t feel pain
The pain
Of that person we lost
Of that hope that was crushed
On our knees
Tearing ourselves apart
It’s in these moments
We look up
Desperate
And see open arms
Healing
A strange word
A contradiction at the beginning
An anomaly
Becoming less foreign
Seeming like a possibility
Wounds healing for real
Becoming healthy scars
Permanent
But strong
We can see the same ones
Etched into the people around us
Written in their eyes
Engraved into their actions
Stapled to their hearts
And we remember
Remember how it felt
No hope
Darkness
Afraid
Nowhere to go
When we remember
We reach over
And we take their hand
The person looks up
As we did
And they see the same open arms
They’re crying
We’re crying
We’re shivering
We’re breaking all over again
For this person
We’re praying
We’re loving
We’re living
That’s life
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*hugs @Just-A-Stick and @Part Of The Narrative in a massive squishy hug*
I love both of you so much sisters
I'm here if either of you ever need to talk about anything
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thanks Wizzler
*hugs back*
I'm here for you too
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